about me A loner, although do enjoy the occasional companionship, if you can handle it. Enjoys long term friendships, sensitive, ponders a lot about life and people. Thursday, August 09, 2007
Songs.
[ 11:30 pm ] Everyone seems so busy nowadays. I haven’t been able to catch up with a few people lately. Every night something seems to be going on. Must be a really busy season. People are moving here and there … even Su Chee is busy. Have not seen her in this form before, being so occupied and … focused. Amazing. Even Sunil is busy … then again, who isn’t except for me? D2Y2 minizine was suppose to be out like now, but some things are just not done yet. I sometimes feel it’s like a lone ranger job … me, Cheryl, Rachel and Ps. Sandra. That’s all. I really don’t know how to involve more people into this. I can’t cast visions like how pastor does it, nor do I consider myself a good motivator. How lah like that. I’m starting to feel, maybe I can’t lead effectively yet. I’ve been spending every night with God. I completed the book of John. I caught quite a few things in it, I’ll share another time. I’m studying the book of Acts at the moment. I figured, since I’ve decided to stick with ACTS till the day I die, I need to finish this book and further align myself with pastor’s vision. I see changes everywhere. Some good changes, some definitely need guidance. Sometimes people change too fast for their environment to cope … usually it’s the other way around. When I say environment, I meant the people around us. I think I discovered a gifting. I can see patterns. I’ve come to realise that everything has a pattern (if you knew this before me, shuddup). I sort of have a template of everyone’s pattern in my head. Call me analytical or thinker, doesn’t bother me since its God’s gift to me and I’m proud of it. How do I know if something is wrong? Easy. The pattern didn’t fit. Let me try to explain … if everyone is a music composition, I’d recognise the song … but when the song (pattern) changes, something is different. Maybe the chorus changed, maybe there’s more depth in it now, and maybe the feel to the whole song is familiar yet different. Just like people. You think you know them, but suddenly their song change … they become familiar yet different. I feel it’s a beautiful dilemma. I’d like to think that our lives are songs. Everyone has a unique song. I wonder how it will sound like. I wonder how mine will sound like. Will it be melancholic? Will there be joy in it? I wonder. But one thing I know for sure, God is the most beautiful song. 0 comments Archives nothing |
Previous Posts
What? Pray. Time. I miss ... Stop. Think no more. Deep. Wounded, ain't defeated. Transformers. Future hopes. Archives April 2003 May 2003 June 2003 July 2003 February 2004 July 2005 October 2005 December 2005 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 November 2006 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 April 2010 December 2010 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 September 2011 April 2012 |
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home