I wonder.: November 2006

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A loner, although do enjoy the occasional companionship, if you can handle it. Enjoys long term friendships, sensitive, ponders a lot about life and people.

Reaping. [ 10:03 pm ]

Life. You reap what you sow, correct? I wonder what I’ve been sowing. How much significance am I to them? Sometimes, I feel that I’ve been taken granted … I guess that works both ways. I think I’ve taken for granted a few things as well. What goes around comes around, right?

Twenty seven years. Am I really happy and contented? I thought I was, I guess I was blinded and delusional. There’s nothing to be gained from being noble, then again, being noble is not about gaining anything. I feel my season is almost over, running the last lap, hoping to make a final sprint. Perhaps then I can proudly say for once I’ve achieved something that’s worthy of mention. Just maybe.

It’s my birthday today, doesn’t feel any special actually. It never was special except for my 20^th one. That was memorable. It was good to be loved then. Now? I really don’t know. Maybe it’s just an indication; some things are just not meant to be, not now. When? Will it happen? I don’t know anymore. I’ve been so foolish. Time to wake up I guess.

My sister and brother bought me a shoe today, the only present I’ve gotten for this year’s birthday. Speaking of presents, 27 years, and I’ve only gotten less than 5 presents in total. Amazing, huh? I think it’s really sweet of my siblings. I love them more now. What about people who are close to me? To be really honest, I don’t think they care. Maybe a few still do, but closer ones around me, I don’t think they do. Hey, you reap what you sow, remember? I’m not complaining. What makes me sad is … never mind, what difference does it make? Suck it up, it’s just a day.

Happy Birthday.

I'll just spend the rest of the day playing Final Fantasy XII.

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