about me A loner, although do enjoy the occasional companionship, if you can handle it. Enjoys long term friendships, sensitive, ponders a lot about life and people. Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Quiet.
[ 5:51 pm ] The office seems to be getting quite a few gifts from clients for Chinese New Year. Some of them were in pretty cool packaging ... so much money to spend :) I guess this is all part of building long term relationships. Gonna be watching Sweeny Todd this coming Saturday ... who's interested? Gimme a buzz man. It's another one of those dark humour movie that I like. The last dark humour movie that I watch was ... The Host I think ... the Korean movie. I thought it was quite funny ... in a demented kinda way? Eh ... it almost makes you feel evil if you laugh ... but it's funny and you HAD to laugh ... kinda a weird mix of feelings. Charlene's going off next week. I think many people will miss her. I know I'll be one of them :) I wonder how 2 years of living alone overseas will do to her. Hopefully she don't come back messed up. Well ... things will be really quiet from now on. Can't imagine how their house's gonna be like. I'm taking next Tuesday off for Chinese New Year. I think I really need to clean my room. Time to get rid of some old stuff ... I think I'm like a hoarder ... either that, I'm REALLY sentimental. I keep all sorts of junk with me. Receipts, bottles, wrappers, boxes, etc .... ARGH. Anyways, there were some things that were bugging me and made me want to give up on ... things/people. Mostly people. Then again, it could all be in the head. I can be quite imaginative ... hence I'm in the creative line of work. I think the human heart can be quite resilient ... or was it the human mind. How much can you subject yourself to before giving up? If you know what's on the line, I doubt you'd want to give up. If you know the consequences, I doubt you'd want to give up. If you know the end results, I doubt you'd want to give up. If you knew the rewards, I doubt you'd want to give up. But this really puzzles me ... so why do people give up? Eh ... suddenly I can't think anymore. Kthxbai. 0 comments Thursday, January 24, 2008
Joy.
[ 3:02 pm ] Just got back from a ... certain corporate award launch at a ... certain hotel in KL. So what did I think of the whole thing? Well ... it was kind of a first for me, to be in a room filled with people dressed in suits and all ... while me, being the typical rebel, was quite under dressed. Insecure? Nah, I was quite comfortable actually, how else to stand out of a crowd of black suits? Wear a white short sleeve shirt, jeans and white shoes :) I'm not sure if we would want to take part in the whole award, as it is we have quite a few things on our plate. But I feel it does open up a lot of opportunities for the company if we do participate, just that we're short handed now ... AND probably priorities are different. Oh well. I wouldn't mind though. There was a girl at the booth that I thought was quite ... umm ... cute. And here I was complaining to someone there weren't anyone that would stop me at my tracks ... spoke too soon. I had a good trip in Miri btw. The place is kinda small ... for a city status town. Not much of a night life too. After the wedding, both of them brought us a bar called ... Island. It was kinda cozy, and frankly the first time in many years since I walked into one. I was kinda wondering what I was doing in a bar, but the company I was with were, thank God, pretty cool people. As a matter of fact, everyone seem to know everyone else there ... kinda reminded me of that sitcom Cheers many many years ago. I found it really cute that their school friends still kept very close touch with each other, and it's no guess that everyone was really happy for them. Hmmm ... next wedding that'll require me to travel would be Erica's in Kuching ... ahhh ... I'm starting to like all this. I think I like flying around. Went to watch Cloverfield yesterday, I love it. I love it. Call me weird or whatever ... but I felt like I could relate to the whole movie ... you could almost cry. The experience was kinda unique, I was imagining it happening in KL ... what would I do? Would I be CRAZY enough to run up a 40 over story apartment to find this one person? I'll never know. I have no answers, but somehow, a part of me could relate to the whole movie. Nonsense, eh? But yeah, this is like the first time that I really ... love a particular movie ... besides City of Angels ;) I've been letting things bothering me. I shouldn't, I'm living a life now that's rich with people and things to do, I think that's important to me now, not some petty concerns and minute details over silly things. They start to bore me. Although I do have a talent at analysing situations ... but really, it's dumb. Rather spend my time being happy :) Someone said I looked different now. I guess it DOES show when your outlook on life changes? Interesting. 0 comments Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Hmmm.
[ 2:08 pm ] I have a lot of things to write about ... but right now, I just feel quite sad over something. I don't even understand why I'm feeling this way. Can't explain myself. Why does it have to happen now? I have so many questions without any answers, answers no one can provide me. Sigh. 1 comments Friday, January 18, 2008
Happy.
[ 1:42 pm ] Yay ... I have a few reasons to be happy :) I got my iPhone to work yesterday night! Now I finally get to use the phone as my primary phone :) Awesome. Flying to Miri tomorrow morning, super early flight ... need to leave my house 4am and get to LCCT by 5am to catch the flight ... argh ... this means I have to sleep really early tonight. Sunil will be driving my car to send us to the airport, I hope he doesn't trash the car and takes good care of it. Ok, now I'm starting to be worried. I wonder what's there to do in Miri? It's gonna be nice to meet some faces that I've not seen for ages. Thinking of making a day trip to Brunei on Sunday, just for the heck of it :D Suppose to go watch Cloverfield tonight, but Alvin can't make it, what's the point right? Might as well wait for the majority of people that wants to watch the movie to make it. Together-gether lah, right? I'm starting to like all my things in white now :) Dunno why, just feel that it looks good. Must be the white shoes man ... it's changing my mentality. I think I've came a long way in changing my preferances in things ... e.g, I never liked wearing analog watches, but now I do, collared shirt ... I hated them, now I do. Strip shirts, used to hate them ... now I do. Maybe it's the age, ya? Tomorrow's the Actsmen breakfast thingy ... I won't be making ... damn. I want to go .... wanna listen to what pastor has to say to us guys. I wonder if anyone will be making any recording of the whole thing? Anyways, just a short update. Time to get back to work! 0 comments Monday, January 14, 2008
Sunflowers.
[ 4:44 pm ] These past few days have been quite eventful. Celebrated an early suprise birthday dinner with Eric, Doreen and Shooks yesterday night at La Caratas, Taipan. One of our favourite Mexican restaurants. It was quite an enjoyable night, then again, whenever I'm with these company, it IS always enjoyable ... and I find myself actually, talking a lot more than I usually do, which, doesn't happen much anyways. I guess, it depends on the company I'm with. Teng Liang couldn't join us since he was still in KL. God is really good to bless me with good friends. I think my friendship with Eric is one of the closest I've have with anyone else. It's been really wonderful having him as a friend and sometimes a wall to bounce back my thoughts on. I just pray that we stay friends till our ripe old age. Something funny happened during service yesterday. It was my first time on stage with the guitar, during prayer time while everyone was playing ... I saw Ps. Sandra looking at me ... and I was like ... crap, what did I do? Have I been playing the wrong notes and chords without realising it? So, I started to be cautious of all my notes .... then she walked up the stage to me. That's it. Something is wrong. What the heck did I do? Is she going to tell me to stop playing? Hahaha ... I can tell you 101 thoughts that were going through my mind EXCEPT for the thing that she was about to do. She had a Word for me ... and it was a funny word, she said. So I started laughing ... she released the word. I was shocked. It was something that has been on my mind ... and no one knows about it. To tell you the truth, I was quite happy ... it was more of a confirmation to me. Oh? What was the word? Ain't gonna reveal it ;) I bought a pair of white shoes! AND I LOVE IT. This is like my first pair of white shoes ... after school, hahaha. Nampak macam Adidas, tapi POWER! Hah! Anyways, I love the shoe, I even bought matching socks hahaha ... such a geek. I was suppose to be buying a birthday gift but got side tracked and bought a shoe for myself ... but it's ok, I didn't forget the gift :) I hope she likes it. I bumped into Ps. Ryan, Calvin Tay, Caroline, etc, etc, etc at Subang Parade the other day. Caught up a little, and first thing I hear is, "You lost weight bro". Hmmm ... my weight hasn't been moving up or down for a year already ... how could I lose weight? Sunil said that I used to look grumpy so it gave the effect of weight gain ... serious? That's bull man. Speaking of which, I've been quite happy lately. I don't know why, I just feel that way. Though there were crappy stuff that happened, but still, after that .... I'm still happy. Sarah and Charlene said I smile a lot these days ... really? Never been conscious of it before. I am quite the emo person dei. I lost a small piece of magnet from the Magnetic Bracelet that Michael gave me for my birthday ... sigh. Now ... it's not COMPLETE! How can it fall off ... maybe the magnet is losing it's strength? Is that EVEN possible? I must had lost it on my way to work today. I'm still thinking about the Word that pastor gave ... :) I thought that was encouraging :) 0 comments Saturday, January 12, 2008
Depress.
[ 1:35 am ] Blardee depress ... blew 270 bucks on a sim card hack from China so that it could work on the iPhone, apparently it doesn't ... haven't got it to work. I don't know what wrong. Now I can't even use BOTH my handphones. How exciting. Eh ... it IS exciting ... and depressing at the same time. WHY WHY WHY WHY ... now I can't sleep or bath until I find a solution. This is ticking me off. ARGH. 0 comments Friday, January 11, 2008
Practice.
[ 2:34 am ] Just got back from Actstream practice … hmmm … I need more practice. Haven’t improved a single bit … I feel a little kelam-kabut. My guitar sounds really weird when plugged in … well, that’s what you get from a fiber body … bleh. I’m still trying to figure out playing acoustic in a band … can’t play too hard. Never mind, I shall improve. It’s so good to have the day off today. I woke up late … and spent the better part of the day doing the THINK website. I need to finish this and get it off my shoulders for a while … I feel really bad delaying it for … umm … quite a while already. It’s a lot more work than I had imagined, and quite frankly I hate to disappoint people … but it was a promise I made, so have to stick by it. Sigh. It’s very hard to go back on your words when friends are involved, eh? Stupid principles, one day I’ll regret it. Went to wash my car this evening, only to have it rain … argh. I’ll be flying down to Miri next Saturday, yay :) Becky’s getting married. I wonder what’s there to do in Miri? Oh yeah … probably will drive to Brunei and check the place out. Hmm … everyone seems to be getting married nowadays. I’m starting to hate the questions directed to me as well. I’m running out of answers. Oh well, doesn’t matter, I have important things to achieve first … slowly, one thing at a time. I think I have a habit of giving one word answers … or one liners … maybe I’m too lazy to elaborate. Sometimes I find it tedious to answer questions directed at me … maybe, I’m not much of a conversationalist. I miss having really witty conversations with people … stupid Kanmani still in US, now I’m starting to miss talking to her. I need to start meeting like-minded people. Ok ok ok ok … gotta stop being picky. I need to start sleeping early man … 0 comments Friday, January 04, 2008
Tax & Cops.
[ 3:44 pm ] What a long day. Went to the Inland Revenue Board today to have my income tax done, surprisingly, the people there are quite courteous, totally different from what I'd expect. I was expecting to see bored and grumpy faces, guess I was wrong :) Hey, they collect taxes, OF COURSE THEY ARE HAPPY. I took a wrong turn on my way back ... so I ended up making a really really really large round ... I was worried if there weren't anymore turn-ins otherwise I'll be on my way to Ipoh man ... bleh. I think I was speeding ... 120km/h is not speeding right? Anyways, when I finally reached the turnoff to Hartamas ... right at the corner I saw cops ... crap, speed trap! I couldn't remember how fast I was going before then, and I didn't spot any dumb cops hiding under the bridge or bushes ... few cars in front of me were stopped. My heart was beating fast, and my mind went "God, not me again ... dowan! no no no no no no saman, I haven't even paid the last one." Thank God, I wasn't stopped :D Yay. Boss asked us in the morning what our New Year's resolutions were, when it came my turn, I said something gibberish or something ... basically, can't remember what I said ... it's personal, I didn't felt like sharing it. I'm quite excited about the plans that we have. I am. Though normally you don't see it much on my face. Hey, maybe if you looked closely, my eyes could twinkle. That's all for today. 0 comments
New Template.
[ 12:25 am ] I love the new design. How can I not? Mmmmm 1 comments Thursday, January 03, 2008
Kaku.
[ 3:49 pm ] Met up with LG today at Plaza Damas. Good to do some catchup with him. Worm joined us later. LG bought a Suzuki Swift book for me, very cool stuff in it ... I like it :) I was suppose to go to the Inland Revenue Board office later ... but lazy lah, I'll go tomorrow morning. Got some work to complete first. I'm currently drawing ... emoticons ... boring, I hate it. I'm not a pixel artist ... well, one-leg-kicking ... bleh. So hard to draw man ... respect to all those pixel artists out there. Man, this is tough. Quite a quiet day today, have to go for ACTStream later in the evening. Speaking of which ... Daniel Lee sms and wants to see how's the progress of the "To be with you" song from Mr. Big is coming along ... ummm ... I haven't the time to practice much. Crap. Want to bantai also cannot ... stupid solo, difficult to grasp ... argh ... 3 days more to go ... argh ... ARGH. My fingers so kaku ... how lah like that. Jason Martin came over yesterday night to borrow a handphone. Sent his for repair so I loaned him the one that I bought for my mom's birthday ... since she's been complaining that it was difficult to use, I loaned it to him .... of course I asked her first, duh. Since it's Jason Martin, my mom sure ok one ... I wonder if he's struggling with the phone now :D There was a power outage in the morning at work today. I was thinking, crap ... this is just like AYA, power outage here and there :) I need a guitar in this office ... I didn't have any dreams last night, maybe I did and couldn't remember. Wait ... nope ... I didn't. Hate to have the alarm clock to wake me up ... I really HATE the alarm clock ... let me stress it again, HATE. But hey, it's been faithfully serving me for 21 years now ... good 'ol Phillip electric alarm clock ... with the most freaking irritating buzzing alarm known to man. Some days I wish I could wake up before it rings. Maybe I'll sleep early today. 0 comments
Insomia.
[ 1:49 am ] Can’t sleep … so I decided to read up all my old 2003 posts. Hmm … was I like that? Now I wished I’d go back in time and smack myself a little … but it was good, good memories. I couldn’t remember half the things I did … at least now I know who I went out watching X-MEN 2 with haha. Man, I miss some of them. At one time, every weekend was a clubbing night. Why did I go, anyways? I think I was with the right crowd, they’re … not bad people, just … lost, if I think about it properly now. Waste of money … though we got in free most of the time, but still, felt like a waste of money. To be honest, I hated every minute of it, music was not my type and it was loud, smoke filled the air, and fights occasionally break out. Still, why did I go? At one point, I gave that a really hard thought, this is not me man … so I stopped. I just hang around with them at the mamak after their usual clubbing session. My friends go clubbing a lot then … does it mean they are ‘bad’? I don’t think so, they have their quirks, but I’ve seen qualities in each of them that sadly sometimes I don’t see it in our Christian brothers and sisters. Sometimes I feel we’re more of a hypocrite than non-Christians. Thinking we’re better than them, don’t give me that look; I’ve seen those looks before. Only regret I ever had back then was, I failed to be the salt and light … what to do? Backsliding then … hahaha … didn’t even know the term back then. When you live in darkness, sometimes you are like the darkness. I wish I existed in ACTS back then. I wonder how different things would turn out. Maybe it will be good, but then again, everything I’ve experienced now … maybe I wouldn’t experience? Hmm … a paradox. If one day, you’re given a choice to right the ONE wrong you’ve done in the past, would you take it? I thought about it, there’s one, I would have taken, but … I’d be losing so much more in the future if I did. The whole thing about time travel is such a mess. We can never repair damages that were done in the past to save the present or future. Never. If you watched H.G Well’s Time Machine you’d know what I’m talking about. The whole time travel paradox is a mess. We can never go back and undo the things we’ve done … hehe … that’s why God is outside of time. I wonder what’s it like to be outside of time? I’d imagine Him in a room with a lot of floating screens … each showing a past, present or future event. Hmm … one day I’ll know. I’ve learned a few things lately, wanna know? 1. Never ask what another person’s worth is. You won’t have an answer, it’s not yours. 2. Pretty girls that smoke, they have interesting stories … why they smoke. 3. Be clueless. Sometimes it helps. 4. Be oblivious. Sometimes it saves you the trouble of knowing the truth, after all, truth does hurt. 5. Follow point 3 and 4 and you get denial. It’s not good for your soul, therefore the word ‘sometimes’ 6. Mothers will always be mothers; whether you’ve 20, 30, 40 or 60 … they will always be … mothers. That’s all for tonight. Good night. 0 comments Wednesday, January 02, 2008
Dreams.
[ 2:23 pm ] First day at work ... it kinda dawned upon me that I'm no longer working in AYA, but after seeing the skype contact list, it isn't so bad. Everyone is still online, ain't exactly cut off from the world. As I drove into the basement car park, I was like thinking ... crap ... I'm gonna be driving in here everyday now ... EVERYDAY ... except weekends of course. I'm kinda miss a lot of things. The day is so terribly slow, I'm struggling to catch up with some of the projects I've done ... problem is, I can't seem to remember where I've left off. Not good man ... not good ... but it'll all come back to me. I will try to make it a productive day today ... but truth be told, I'm kinda happy next Thursday is a holiday, haha. I had a dream few days ago, I think it's kinda fanciful. I think it'll make a good movie, serious. Here's how it went. In my dream, there were Angels in every government of the world. Think of it as, they were placed there to make the world a better place. What better way than to influence from within? I thought that was quite smart. They took the form of humans, and were high ranking officials, but over time, they became too human. Forgetting their true purpose, instead began to be corrupted. They forgot who they were, without a past. I confronted one of them (I dunno how, it was weird anyways) and asked a lot of questions, with each question this person got more confused and couldn't believe that he had no past ... then it happened. This person's eyes turned really bright and fiery and I saw really bright wings, ummm it's bright and fiery but you could see the form of the wings. Hey, what else could it be? Angel right? Next thing I knew, I was few feet behind the angel and we were above looking down at a city. Fanciful dream right? Super imagination hehehe ... I shared this with Rachel, she said must be some anime I watched. I think this would make a really nice movie, right? right? Anyways, been thinking about opening this blog to the public ... it was part of this year's new year resolution. Still not sure if I should do it. Breaking a new year's resolution already eh ... I think not! 0 comments Tuesday, January 01, 2008
Closure.
[ 1:02 pm ] I am lazy, so here’s a summary. 1. Melaka trip was … fun I think. The place has changed so much! Spent most of our time walking … and walking … and more walking … and eating … and eating … and more eating. I had satay celup, totally fulfilling trip. 2. Fell sick the next day, but who cares? Not gonna waste my off days, so went over to Pavilion and watched a movie with Jason Martin, Charlene, Jess and her mom and sis. 3. Fell even sicker the following day, but who cares, went for another movie at 1U with Joanna and a few others, haha. 4. New Years Eve … I kinda decided to stay at home to reflect. Felt really bad about turning down all the invitations. Ain’t complaining, but it’s been nice. It was a good year after all for me. Wrote down some New Year’s Resolution that I’m hoping to keep. Try la … at least. Starting work at a brand new place tomorrow, gonna move on with a brand new attitude and outlook in life. People do change, in just the right amount. Here’s to an unpredictable 2008! 0 comments Archives nothing |
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