about me A loner, although do enjoy the occasional companionship, if you can handle it. Enjoys long term friendships, sensitive, ponders a lot about life and people. Friday, October 31, 2008
I will regret this...
[ 12:21 pm ] a Casanova Male Butterfly ... that's what I'll be tonight. ugh ... 0 comments Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Tiring, but fun.
[ 7:14 pm ] Had a long eventful weekend! Instead of feeling refreshed after the long weekend, I find myself a lot more tired than usual. Yes … it was a pretty hectic weekend, but I’m not complaining … I kinda enjoyed the pace a little. I attended Matthew and Adeline’s wedding on Saturday morning. They did a pretty good job with the décor. The church really looked nice with the garden theme and all. I couldn’t attend the dinner reception. To be honest, I couldn’t afford it … with all the weddings that are coming up in the weeks to come, it’s starting to hurt my pocket a lot. I don’t know what I’m thinking. I know it’s a bad excuse. I have a wedding to attend this coming Saturday. I caught up with Mr. Chang, Doreen and her 2 friends on Saturday after the wedding to do a little shopping at Pavilion. While the girls went on their merry way, Mr. Chang and I decided to check out different jackets and suits. We both needed to get a full suit. I find that the suits are either too tight or too loose for me … there’s nothing in-between. We tried Zara, Monaco, G2000, CK, etc. None of which were my size. At least, I found the kinda cutting and style I like. So, we went to check out a few tailors at Sungai Wang. So far so good … the prices start from RM650 and above for a 2 piece suit. Depending on the material … since I’m a little tight on cash, I decided to put this on hold. I’ll get mine tailored in December I guess. My mom has been like nagging on why I need to have a full suit? Why not? I need it for a wedding … umm, 2 weddings and besides that, every man needs to have at least a suit in his lifetime. Anyways, we had dinner at Food Republic in Pavilion. This was my first time eating here; the food selection was pretty good. I like their food court concept, very Singaporean. I wouldn’t be surprised if it was Singaporean :P We spent pretty much the whole afternoon and night in KL. Pretty tiring, gosh … not to mention I had to wake up early in the next morning to drive the van to Cyber. My driving license was gonna expired on Sunday, so I went to get it renewed on Saturday. I didn’t want to be stopped by the police while driving the van with the equipments on board, quite risky. Well, what do you know? Their system was offline at the SS15 post office. I thought to myself, maybe I’ll go to the one in Carrefour, and guess what? Same thing … system offline. At least now I know it’s all networked. Well, I couldn’t renew my license … so if I was stopped by the police, I could probably try to reason or feign innocence :D I finally got it renewed this morning. Kanmani invited a few of us over for her Deepavali open house. Eric and Doreen couldn’t make it since they had to entertain a friend from Penang. So, it was only me and Shooks that went over. Her open house was quite an eye opener (love puns)! If you’re looking for a multicultural Malaysian open house, come to her house for Deepavali. I’ve a new found respect for her folks. Oh yeah, I finally got to meet her bunch of friends that I’ve not met before. They attend FGA and … another church that I can’t remember the name now :D We found out that we had quite a few mutual friends. So yeah, it was pretty good. I’m just happy that she manage to get herself into this group of people :P They are really nice. We had an open house this year as well. Ok, I wouldn’t call it an open house since not many people knew about it and mom said not to invite many people. So I didn’t invite anyone except for those staying really close by like Sunil & Jack, saves the trouble. I don’t like people to terasa one … so if anyone ask why they weren’t invited, easy, I didn’t invite anyone. Please direct the question to my brother or sister instead … since we have a lot more mutual friends. BESIDES … this was really last minute, since my mom was whining about how much work it takes blah blah blah … and decided not to have it this year. And she told us we’re having it last Friday. I malas to invite la. Sorry, if you weren’t invite … blame my sister :D Kanmani was asking what I’ll want to do for my birthday this year … I dunno. I had a brilliant idea … just not the capacity for it anymore. Maybe I’ll just chill out somewhere and treat myself … though I did like my Afro Mustachio themed birthday idea very much. I guess I could save it for next year or something. Aiyah … dunno what to do la. I spent the whole Sunday afternoon till evening over at David Gary’s house. Why? My iPhone was giving me a lot of problems. Apart from me, he probably knows a lot about fixing the iPhone as well. Anyways, we found that it was a hardware problem. SIGH. So, in order to have it fixed (since Apple Store Malaysia doesn’t recognise the iPhone, it is grey market after all) I have to spend around 700 to 800 bucks. Expensive hor? I’m thinking of fixing it and then sell it off online or something … and get a REAL phone this time. I’ve been using this thing for almost a year now, I believe the novelty has run out … I find it ironic that quite a number of people in church are carrying one now. Probably thinks it looks so cool, status symbol la kononya. Hah! But wait till it rosaks! I’m done with mine … moving on :P Chey … I feel so conceited :D Evil. Time for dinner … leftovers from yesterday. 0 comments Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Worms.
[ 11:50 am ] I think I'm beginning to drift really further apart from my family unit. I don't know why, but I feel a lot detached at the moment. Sometimes I really wonder if it makes a difference I'm around or not. This is not self pity. I am not beating myself with a dead seal. Just things that go through my mind. You know, it's great that I see the rest of them get along really well, but when it comes to me, I dunno ... perhaps I am too critical. I wish I had siblings that share the same interests as me. God, tell me why EVERY SINGLE ONE of us are different? How come other families can share things in common but mine is just too varied. Ok wait ... maybe just MY interests are different from theirs. I'm beginning to understand a lot about my dad's life now. It all makes sense. Yesterday's dinner was really weird. It's been a really long time since we went out as a family, I should be happy, but I guess I was just too damn tired after a long day. Suppose to buy dinner for mom and sis for their birthday, but I don't like last minute preparations ... or lack of preparations. Celebrating birthdays especially any of my family members are just really weird for me. Usually we'll have dinner somewhere ... like this. So, what do we talk about? I don't talk. Period. I find nothing interesting to share that would interest them, nor would they have the genuine interest of listening to anything I have to say. I rather keep to myself. I find that they don't appreciate my differences. They can't seem to understand nor comprehend that I don't share the same interests as them. Hence, I'm always the weird one out. WHO CAN UNDERSTAND?! Why is it that it's so much easier with friends? You know how they say, blood is thicker than water? Mine must be pretty diluted. Sure, every family have their own set of problems, I got mine. Or maybe I'm just the problem. Someone once said, don't expect others around you to change ... YOU be the change. Stupid fella, easier said than done. Talk is cheap. I remember the time when I first entered college right after my SPM. I had to move down here while my family remained in Muar. I could only visit them during breaks ... that's almost 6 months apart. Did I miss them? I don't know, but what I know was ... it was good to be back. Things were a lot better when you're apart. When you see them every single day, you tend to take things for granted. I have too many things going on in my life that I wish I could share about. Guess I'm one of those people that really need good friends to talk to. I want an elder brother, I want a father figure. They have been lacking in my life. My head is telling me to talk to God, since He knows far better than anyone else. I can't remember the last time I shared honestly with Him. Been carrying too many baggages. Yeah, I think I'm carrying too many baggages. One of these days, I'm gonna snap like a rubber band. Sigh. Forget what I said. I've taken a liking to classic jazz now :) Paid a close listen to the song 'The Girl from Ipanema' and found that it's actually quite a sad song. Poor guy, the girl in that song just mean. Tragic love, eh. Eh ... don't feel like writing anymore. 1 comments Monday, October 20, 2008
Groove
[ 6:08 pm ] I went to Groove Junction with Kanmani last friday ... suppose to be an early birthday dinner for her + the 1000 years catch up session. I've always wanted to go Groove Junction ever since Aidan mention they got really good life jazz/funk bands playing. Since, I had the choice of choosing the place to go to ... hehe ... I chose this :P I didn't know they charged RM40 for Fridays and Saturdays. That's really steep ... we almost walked off ... well, I almost walked off, but after careful consideration, heck it ... since we're here already, let's just make the most of the night. No complains. And I really am glad we forked out the cover charges. This band, Groove Culture was playing ... I love it. We sat really close to the stage ... hahaha ... so cool. Really enjoyed the music there. What about the food? I ordered this Spicy Chicken Breast ... I've never tasted anything saltier than salt. Mental note to self, order something else the next time. Yes, this is gonna be my regular chill out spot from now on. I don't mind paying 40 bucks once or twice a month to unwind here. The table next to us were occupied by quite a few ... umm ... adults in their late 30s and early 40s (by my super accurate estimation). Quite a boisterous bunch I'd say, and quite sporting as well. They were dancing all the way ... my eyes nearly popped. Aunties and uncles BOOGIEEEEEE ... hahahaha ... The printer sent the posters and flyers to the office this morning. To be honest, I was a little anxious about the whole thing. I'd be screwed if it didn't turn out right ... a lot of money were involved so ... yeah. BUT thank God, everything turn out perfect. The designs look so much better printed out :) Here's how the poster look like. We're organising a competition utilising the pacmee platform. For the moment ... I don't feel like talking about the competition now. There's a lot more to do, I've sent the ads to 2 magazines already, and am sending one more to a local paper. I'm not sure how it'll turn out in the papers ... I've not done newspaper ads before. Anyhooooooooo moving along ... Ps. Kenneth and Ps. Sandra are both back from ministry in Australia. It's really good to see them again ... they've been gone for 3 weeks. No kidding. Ps. Kenneth mentioned that he'd like to catch up with me, but I know he's quite a busy man, so ... not gonna hold my breath for too long. There's quite a few things I need his opinions on ... I think I'm lacking spiritual guidance. I don't like spiritual struggles. It's funny that Ps. Sandra was asking if I've been attending any home cells ... hello? I guess people think I've been slacking away ... bleh. I love my home cell. We're quite laidback ... I like laidback-ness :D Next week is Deepavali ... I wonder if we're going to have an open-house like the previous years. Hmmmm ... I'll check with mum. 2 comments Thursday, October 16, 2008
seul
[ 12:02 pm ] I had to wait behind a lady in a Vios for almost 5 minutes for her to move her car from the petrol tank. I mean, you're done filling your tank, bloody move your car la. I gave a honk and still she didn't budge. What the heck ... so ... I ended up waiting for 5 minutes while verbally abusing her under my breath. Hmmmph ... what a morning, and I was late for work! On a plus side, at least the petrol prices dropped now :) Last Sunday I met up with Erwin and Ah Chao, my ex-classmates from school. Had a good time catching up at some BKT shop in SS14. Was suppose to meet at Kam Heong, but that place is always packed up during lunch time. Apparently most of the guys from my batch are doing pretty well. Bunch of high flyers ... good for them, but I still remember how most of them were like in school ;) Even if you're a department head now, I'll still remember you as a prankster :P We're thinking of organising a trip somewhere ... without the wives and girlfriends tagging along of course. Dunno where to go ... I often find it hard to answer them when they ask if I'm married now or seeing someone. You can imagine the look on their faces ... each year they ask the same question. Frankly, I don't know how to answer anymore. Oh, of course there are those gay jokes :) Heck, I don't really care. Oh, I didn't sign up for Christmas production this year. I don't know why. I totally missed the deadline haha. I think this year round, I'd like to sit in the crowd ... or find something else to do. I doubt I would have the time now. I think this year they are going to redo the very first Christmas production we did back in 2005. The Big Christmas Show! One of the best one I believe. This is something that I'll be looking forward to. I gained a bit of weight ... I think it's due to the lack of regular exercise now, not from working out :) I haven't been going to the gym that regularly now. I need to get back to the routine of doing so. Someone commented that I look tired ... with life. Hmmm ... people like to comment a lot hor? But, I do appreciate it because they mean well. Once again, I don't know what to say about that. Am I tired with the monotony of life? I'd be lying if I say I wasn't. Nothing out of the ordinary is happening at the moment, everything is at a stagnant still. People crave for adventures while I lie here anchored with my delusional worries. I don't have many REAL friends any more, only a handful. I'm not a social animal either. I don't crave for attention nor do I love the limelight. Having someone to talk to isn't too much to ask, isn't it? 0 comments Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Ugh ...
[ 11:16 am ] ... this is starting to get a bit more frustrating :\ don't tick me off kthxbai 0 comments Wednesday, October 08, 2008
Simple, Starving to be Safe
[ 2:45 pm ] Lately I've been thinking so strangely about the clouds and how they seem to slowly fade away, yeah... Maybe some day we will find a way to disappear. Just me and you on silver lining dreams. Ohh how could i survive without your love and the hope you bring. Ohh even when the sky is falling down, i know i have you, and it's all i need. Lately i've been hoping you can stay with me And i could hold you close til the end of time...yeah. Maybe someday we will grab some change and run away but for now i'll learn to say goodbye Ohh how could i survive without your love and the hope you bring. Ohh even when the world is breaking down, i know i have you, and it's all i need. ohh she is my everything ohh she is all i need.. Ohh she is my everything... ohh she is all i need. Ohh how could i survive without your love and the hope you bring. Ohh even when the world just falls apart, i know i have you, and it's all i need. I love Daphne Loves Derby :) 0 comments Tuesday, October 07, 2008
A change of pace
[ 4:13 pm ] I'm enjoying my job a lot more now. Ok, I'm saying this with a little bit more confidence. I'm starting to find myself doing a lot more than just designing, which is good. I like a change of pace and environment occasionally. Now that our company is organising a competition, that's just the change I needed. I had the opportunity to tag along for meetings now and connect with different people. It's interesting. Like yesterday, we went to meet with a certain local youth paper, I found myself making observations. Well, if this was a Sci-fi movie, I'd like to think of myself as the psychic :D Reading people's mind :P The meeting went well, and I could see that they were genuinely interested. I love observing people, but I think that's really a rude habit that I need to break. Sometimes I like to look into people's eyes just to tell if they are honest ... but that might backfire ... Meeting all these different people, sometimes I feel a little inadequate. See, meeting people with job titles like Senior Account Manager, CEO, Head of Advertising, etc, etc ... and me? I'm just a humble designer. So, what's the designer doing here? But most of the time, they don't even know what I do :P And in all honesty, I don't know what to tell them either, coz I wear quite a lot of hats. I guess that's the beauty of working in a small team ;) Oh wow, just realised this is my 250th post! 0 comments Monday, October 06, 2008
Life
[ 11:59 am ] It's October, pretty soon it's gonna be the end of the year. Yay? There's so many more things that I want to see and expect before the year ends. I really hope things will turn up all right ... well, just because I have had enough of things not turning the way I wanted. Hmmph. As much as I think sometimes life is unfair, I ponder about it for a while when I look at mine. True, I have so much to be thankful for, but yet I yearn for things that are more than what it is now. What's worse than satisfying the people around you, is to satisfy yourself. I can never be satisfied with what I have now. I want more. Selfish? Maybe. More of what? More of life. More of everything that should had gone right. More of the ideals in life that should had been. Pbbbth. The last paragraph was mostly bullshit. What? Cannot emo now is it? Drama queen :D Life is GOOD LAH! Each time someone asks me, how's life? I really don't know how to answer them. I could say, "Like that lor ..." Like yeah, what does that mean? I don't know ... perhaps an ambiguous attempt at camouflaging my rather monotonous existence on this planet? Or I could be honest and just say, "Life's good, but it could be better". Yes, it could be better. I'm not THAT satisfied with the stage I'm at now. I mean, I am happy ... but it could be BETTER. You know what I mean? I see most people around me moving on to new stages of their lives, i.e getting married, building a family, job progression, etc. When is the next stage of my life? What's round the corner? What's up at the hill? I want to know. Am I being critical to myself? Perhaps maybe I'm just not ready for any of this. 0 comments Archives nothing |
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