about me A loner, although do enjoy the occasional companionship, if you can handle it. Enjoys long term friendships, sensitive, ponders a lot about life and people. Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Jung Typology Test
[ 12:58 pm ] Needed to know if I changed much over this year ... so I did what any 'personality' test geeks would do. Hit the quiz button :) Your Type is INFJ
The Portait of the Counselor (INFJ) The Counselor Idealists are abstract in thought and speech, cooperative in reaching their goals, and enterprising and attentive in their interpersonal roles. Counselors focus on human potentials, think in terms of ethical values, and come easily to decisions. The small number of this type (little more than 2 percent) is regrettable, since Counselors have an unusually strong desire to contribute to the welfare of others and genuinely enjoy helping their companions. Although Counsleors tend to be private, sensitive people, and are not generally visible leaders, they nevertheless work quite intensely with those close to them, quietly exerting their influence behind the scenes with their families, friends, and colleagues. This type has great depth of personality; they are themselves complicated, and can understand and deal with complex issues and people. Counselors can be hard to get to know. They have an unusually rich inner life, but they are reserved and tend not to share their reactions except with those they trust. With their loved ones, certainly, Counselors are not reluctant to express their feelings, their face lighting up with the positive emotions, but darkening like a thunderhead with the negative. Indeed, because of their strong ability to take into themselves the feelings of others, Counselors can be hurt rather easily by those around them, which, perhaps, is one reason why they tend to be private people, mutely withdrawing from human contact. At the same time, friends who have known a Counselor for years may find sides emerging which come as a surprise. Not that they are inconsistent; Counselors value their integrity a great deal, but they have intricately woven, mysterious personalities which sometimes puzzle even them. Counselors have strong empathic abilities and can become aware of another's emotions or intentions -- good or evil -- even before that person is conscious of them. This "mind-reading" can take the form of feeling the hidden distress or illnesses of others to an extent which is difficult for other types to comprehend. Even Counselors can seldom tell how they came to penetrate others' feelings so keenly. Furthermore, the Counselor is most likely of all the types to demonstrate an ability to understand psychic phenomena and to have visions of human events, past, present, or future. What is known as ESP may well be exceptional intuitive ability-in both its forms, projection and introjection. Such supernormal intuition is found frequently in the Counselor, and can extend to people, things, and often events, taking the form of visions, episodes of foreknowledge, premonitions, auditory and visual images of things to come, as well as uncanny communications with certain individuals at a distance. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Interesting to know I went from ISFJ to INFJ ... good to know. 0 comments
The 7 Secrets of Highly Successful People
[ 10:26 am ] Rayson, your secret to success is to be Proactive Part of being proactive means you can aggressively anticipate the future and work to shape it according to your desires. You don't wait for things to happen; you make things happen, which is why you also tend to find yourself in a position of responsibility. Also, because of your quick mind and ability to strategize, you can keep yourself two steps ahead of everyone else when it comes to executing plans or anticipating future actions. These characteristics help you rise to positions of authority where others can more fully appreciate your drive and direction. Right ... hmmmph 0 comments Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Head on.
[ 9:06 pm ] Rushing head on into things can be scary, ya? Can't be too careful at times, you break things in the process, at least you get the result you wanted ... just that there's more damage done. I wonder if it was worth it? Sometimes it does ... just that the price to pay is too great. Dunno how many times do I have to go through this. I envy the simple minded sometimes. The simpler you are, the happier you are, I guess. How to achieve that simple childlike faith again? This year's Christmas play is gonna be awesome. I didn't get the role, but who cares, at least I didn't quit ... though I nearly did. Playing as one of Joseph's brother is fun. Wished I had the pissy and angry role ... then I didn't have to act, it'll be natural :) I'm still studying people around me nowadays, observing how they interact. Sometimes I don't like what I see, too bad I can't do a thing about it ... sometimes I just wish I could. Ok fine, since I said I'm not gonna mess it up for You, ok? I've been trying to understand the word 'overbearing'. Frankly, I don't understand it ... but since pastor said I have a bit of that, so I had to know what it meant .... o·ver·bear·ing (ō'vər-bâr'ĭng) adj.
Hmmmm .... sounds about right. Serious ... looks like I have to work on this. Sucks. 0 comments Monday, October 29, 2007
Conversations
[ 4:30 pm ] Me: Ok ... this is really difficult, you know that right? Him: Yeah, I know. Me: I'm trying here, but it's really hard to have that kind of patience. How can I trust You more? It's a lot harder than it sounds. I want to DO THINGS! Him: Stop messing up what I'm doing then. Me: .... Him: Didn't I told you to lean on Me? Have I not spoken to you? Me: ... yeah ... but it's hard. You know how my mind works, right? Him: I gave you that, but I gave you a heart as well. Learn to trust Me more. Me: ... Him: You think you know better, always trying to be in control of things that you have no control of ... only I can do that :) Me: ... Him: You think you are wise and know it all. You have it all planned out in your head ... when will you start to believe in Me more? Me: I can't help it. Everytime when I surrender I always fail. Sometimes it's more than I can bear. You know my worries and my anxieties. I don't want to worry anymore. I've always believed You have the best for me and that You'd take care of me .... and yet, sometimes I find it hard because my flesh is weak. I tend to understand how things are based on my own understanding, and yeah, I messed things up. I have been disobedient. Him: ... your burdens are not for you alone to bear. I said it before than my yoke is light, your burdens are for the both of us to bear, together. I will make it easy for you. You have to trust Me, don't try to figure everything out on your own and don't assume that you know it all. Me: I'm sorry that I took things into my own hands, and probably made a mess of the thigns that You were preparing. Him: What is your mess compared to Me? Watch Me restore it, so as long you believe in Me. I have many things prepared for you, just don't think too much about it, ok? It saddens Me when you wanted to reject what I've given you. Me: Ummm ... yeah, I dowan to swap already! I want it! I understood it better after I spoke to pastor about it! Sorry that I was being really silly. Him: Good. Everything will fall into place. I planned it afterall. You'll see how beautiful things will be, ya? Me: Good thing I have You ... I would really be lost. How about that *ahem* that I wanted ... Him: When the time comes. Be patient. 0 comments Friday, October 26, 2007
Proverbs 3:5-7
[ 10:45 am ] Few days ago, I shared with someone that I really respected and could count on for spiritual advice, that man of course, was my pastor. He said something that was and eye opener to me. For once in many many months, I found a path through my cloud of thoughts and worries. Sometimes you need someone to help you, in this case, I really needed help ... and I thank God for that, since I believe it was through His divine appointment that I was able to meetup with Pastor. I shared with him a few verses that God placed in my heart 2 days ago when I was really giving up on a lot of things. Proverbs 3:5-7 This is such a hard thing for me to swallow. I have to give up my thoughts, my worries, my own understanding and trust Him. Such a struggle, but I really need to. "Do not be wise in your own eyes" Ouch, ouch ... I now have this reminder in whatever I do, and wherever I go. I've been worrying on God's behalf, thinking on His behalf ... all so wrong. I have to giveup thinking too much about things that I have no control about, God has absolute control. I shared with Pastor about my job, he was really happy about it as it was inline with what the church's new direction and calling. Hmm ... no point worrying. He did say something interesting. "You didn't have a choice being born a male, but you do have a choice to be a man." Wow. 0 comments Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Future.
[ 1:27 pm ] I’m writing this while listening to Anberlin’s lastest album that I gasak-ed from someone … I’m pretty much done with work here, all my tasks were completed. I should be working on something new now, but felt compelled to write my thoughts down. 0 comments Friday, October 19, 2007
Sigh.
[ 1:43 pm ] So discouraged. No one seems to care. Now I feel like slapping a few people. I really can't take it anymore. What can I do. Shut up and not do anything? 0 comments Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Decisions.
[ 2:05 am ] It’s been a while. I find myself at another crossroad. Just how many crossroads do I have to come across in this life of mine? Plenty I guess … I guess every decision that I make now is starting to have a larger impact. Hmm … I’m buying a car … while everyone, well most, thinks that I’m gonna get a measly Perodua Viva … I’ve started to aim for something a little better in the long run. I really can’t imagine myself driving around a Viva for the next 7 years … but this car that I have in mind now … yeah, I can imagine myself driving it for 7 years. Wow … finally, I can AFFORD a car. I can actually AFFORD a car now … made an appointment for a test drive next Sunday, want to have a feel of the whole thing before making any commitments. I’ve been approached to be part of this year’s Christmas play … ok, I did sign up for it, but I was really expecting some minor role, I’m never into major roles nor anything that draws too much attention to yourself. I even told someone, I was thinking of quitting the whole thing before the auditions … maybe that wasn’t such a good move, I think I might had made the person think what a loser I am. So, anyways, I thought about it for quite a few days now … what do I have to lose? Only my Saturdays and Sundays for the next 2 months … quite a hefty price to pay. I love my weekends. Maybe I’m being selfish, I dunno … but 2 things stopped me from quitting. I need to stop running man … I realise that isn’t a really good example for someone to follow. Sometimes, you need to take the challenge. So yeah, I’m up for the challenge, although to be honest, I’m damn uncomfortable about acting, I can’t even act for crying out loud! Second … I wanted to leave a legacy for my children … if I ever get married and have kids, that is. I want them to be proud of their dad … ‘wow, dad did this before when he was young’. Something like a source of encouragement lah … if your father could go through this before, you can too. Am I thinking too far? Life has been quite a bore to me nowadays. I really miss a lot of things that were in the past. Maybe it’s foolish to always look to the future and seldom turn back to look at the past. There are some good memories there. I look at the past … they give me hope in a hopeless situation. Yeah … I’m in a crappy one right now. One thing at a time … one thing at a time … all will fall into place. 0 comments Archives nothing |
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