Me: Ok ... this is really difficult, you know that right?
Him: Yeah, I know.Me: I'm trying here, but it's really hard to have that kind of patience. How can I trust You more? It's a lot harder than it sounds. I want to DO THINGS!
Him: Stop messing up what I'm doing then.Me: ....
Him: Didn't I told you to lean on Me? Have I not spoken to you?Me: ... yeah ... but it's hard. You know how my mind works, right?
Him: I gave you that, but I gave you a heart as well. Learn to trust Me more.Me: ...
Him: You think you know better, always trying to be in control of things that you have no control of ... only I can do that :)Me: ...
Him: You think you are wise and know it all. You have it all planned out in your head ... when will you start to believe in Me more?Me: I can't help it. Everytime when I surrender I always fail. Sometimes it's more than I can bear. You know my worries and my anxieties. I don't want to worry anymore. I've always believed You have the best for me and that You'd take care of me .... and yet, sometimes I find it hard because my flesh is weak. I tend to understand how things are based on my own understanding, and yeah, I messed things up. I have been disobedient.
Him: ... your burdens are not for you alone to bear. I said it before than my yoke is light, your burdens are for the both of us to bear, together. I will make it easy for you. You have to trust Me, don't try to figure everything out on your own and don't assume that you know it all.Me: I'm sorry that I took things into my own hands, and probably made a mess of the thigns that You were preparing.
Him: What is your mess compared to Me? Watch Me restore it, so as long you believe in Me. I have many things prepared for you, just don't think too much about it, ok? It saddens Me when you wanted to reject what I've given you.Me: Ummm ... yeah, I dowan to swap already! I want it! I understood it better after I spoke to pastor about it! Sorry that I was being really silly.
Him: Good. Everything will fall into place. I planned it afterall. You'll see how beautiful things will be, ya?Me: Good thing I have You ... I would really be lost. How about that *ahem* that I wanted ...
Him: When the time comes. Be patient.
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