A lot of things has been running through my head (almost always) these couple of weeks and it's really affecting me in some ways ... somehow lah. It's one of those moments that you wished "If only I had ....." kinda moment, and it really sucks. Feelings, thoughts are all jumbled up and it can be quite a challenge to sort them out. So, I thought of writing them down in a list and maybe figure out why I am feeling this way ... but of course that didn't work out either :)

I haven't been in contact with some friends for a while now, and I miss them. Hope they are back for Christmas this year. Speaking of Christmas, I better start inviting people hahahaha ... procrastinating again ...

Gonna be in KK on the 26th all the way till the 2nd of January, so looking forward to a long break :D MmmmMmmmm Kadazan girls ... bwahahahahaahahaha ... dream on ;)

I had a haircut a few weeks back, it's all short and .... short now. It takes a while getting used to .... I'm starting to think it was a bad move. Thinking of growing it longer again.

Well, 2 more weeks and it's a new year again. I wonder what' in store next year? Personally, I got to know a few people better and that really was a blessing. Hahaha I think I made a lot more friends this year compared to the last 5 years!! But I still think I'm somewhat anti-social at times ... bad trait, eh? For those who know me well enough, they'll probably know it takes a loooooooong time for me to warm up to someone ... honestly without faking it ... not that I fake it though :D So what else happened this year? I'll to list it down ...

1. I decided to serve God through Actstream.
2. I decided to pick up the guitar once again, thanks to Bryan for the jazz lessons bwahaha
3. I reliased most girls just aren't what you imagined they are, tsk tsk
4. Started morning devotions with Dg, Jack, Sister, + anyone who comes along the way, and we haven't stopped since.
5. I think my relationship with my siblings improved compared to previous years, well, still a lot of things to work out, but it's a start.
6. Some kid called me Jesus and now the whole church jokes about it once in a while ... long story.
7. I think I heard God's voice when I was asking for guidance, he said "NO!" and I thank HIM, he was right (but of course) :) What about? No way am I sharing this.
8. Erwin came back from the States :)
9. I managed to track down my secondary school mates :)
10. I realised that ... sometimes people do genuienly care about you, and I love them dearly for that.
11. I kept my hair long, straighten it 2 times over the year, and had it chopped off 2 weeks ago. Heh.
12. I started wearing contact lenses again ... after many years :)
13. My shoe got a year older, it's 8 years now and I'm proud of it.
14. I learned to forget about the past and forgave those who used to hurt me. It was really a difficult thing for me to do, but I think I'm finally over it. Time to move on.
15. I realised that I'm a better person today because of my dad. I miss him so much.

..... the list goes on and I don't think I can list them all here. I like 2005 ... I discovered a lot of things about myself and the people around me. I really wonder how 2006 will be like?