about me A loner, although do enjoy the occasional companionship, if you can handle it. Enjoys long term friendships, sensitive, ponders a lot about life and people. Sunday, June 17, 2007
Future hopes.
[ 11:22 pm ] What would you wish for your future? I came up with a list, some rather corny, some require constant reminders while some are just what I really really want … guess which one is that.
I think everyone will wish for these things in an ideal world. Who said an ideal future is not attainable? So as long I keep these in my head as constant reminders, I know one day it will be fulfilled. Imagine the amount of grace that’s needed … I know I will one day come to have that kind of capacity. Starting work tomorrow at 10.30am, he messaged me this morning during church service to confirm if I’m coming in tomorrow, didn’t know he was that anxious as well. My first impression of him was good; I just hope that things will turn out really well. If it does, I know this is a testimony, and I’m not letting it up without glorifying Him. I guess until things are for certain first … otherwise I’ll be no different than those that shiok sendiri during prayer service hahahahaha. Anyways, got 3 freelance projects on my hand now … I just don’t know where to begin or what to do. I should be happy rolling around the money, but somehow I’m not. I don’t feel the joy of the money, it’s not what I’m looking for … yes, having the extra cash does help, but it’s not the kinda satisfaction I need at the moment. I know this season of my life, I need something else. Something else … sigh. 1 comments Saturday, June 16, 2007
I'm alone.
[ 2:06 pm ] I’m starting work this Monday, not very excited nor am I anxious about it, just kinda feels normal. If Su Chee hears this, she’ll probably say, “Phelgmatic-nya”. Maybe :) I’m alone at home, I find myself having nothing much to do … eh, wait, I have some freelance project that needs to be completed and started, but I just haven’t found the urge to do it yet. Lepak a bit lah. I need a clear head to start, not one that is a little jumbled up now, ok, maybe it’s not so jumbled up. You know, some things are just what it is, in front of us, there’s no other meaning or motives to it, it’s plain as day. Our little actions speak so much louder than what our heart tells us. I’m talking about denial. It’s such a weird feeling to be in, don’t you agree? I think I need some guidance; I need to speak to Ps. Kenneth one of these days, since he wanted to catch up the other day. He’s so busy, I wonder if he has the time for me. Su Chee made chicken pasta salad last Monday, it was quite a good attempt (attempt ‘coz I don’t think she’s done this before), and I was pleasantly surprised with how it turned out. Good work, I hope she’s encouraged to try making different things. I know she made this really nice dip last time … don’t think we’ll be seeing that anytime soon :\ Sunil joked, “A woman was born today”, so true. I just hope that she doesn’t stop there, there’s so much more that she’s capable of. Anyways, I really hope to end this year really soon, I want to achieve something, something that God is proud of … umm … don’t even know if He’s been proud of the things that I’ve done. Pastor said, if you walk in your calling, the anointing will follow … so far no problems, I guess things are ok then. The other day Rachel and Su Chee suggested that we plan a trip to Genting after AYA Awards. Genting eh, kinda boring to … I was expecting an island trip … but anywhere will do lah, ‘coz I know it will be fun if I go with people that I’m comfortable with. Well, the KK trip last 2 years ago was fun :) I hope we’re not planning too far ahead, there 5 more months anyways, things do change a lot in 5 months …. Just like how 3 months ago was … argh. I heard Perhentian is fun, never been there before … or maybe go Langkawi ‘coz it’s duty free and we could rent really cool cars … but like I said, anywhere doesn’t really matter to me anymore, it’s the company that matters now. I think this is the time where you really build memories. Speaking of which, I was thinking in the future when I have kids, what’s the best thing I could give them? An education? Money? Love? Protection? All these are important as a whole, but I want to really invest my time in them … play with them, study with them, and not let work get between my children and I … and maybe their generations down the line will do the same. I will break the curse. 0 comments Archives nothing |
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