about me A loner, although do enjoy the occasional companionship, if you can handle it. Enjoys long term friendships, sensitive, ponders a lot about life and people. Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Sniffles.
[ 4:56 pm ] Ugh ... been sneezing the whole afternoon. Must be the air in the office ... ugh ... Well, that's not gonna stop me from enjoying Ironman later :) Over and out. 0 comments Sunday, April 27, 2008
Smell the roses.
[ 3:44 pm ] I was hanging out with Eric last Friday after work at The Curve. We had dinner at this place called Bubba Gump. Sound familiar? If you’ve watched Forest Gump, it’ll ring a bell. Guess what they serve there? Shrimps! I mean … prawns. Americans, want to be different from the rest of the world. Anyways, the food was awesome! Wish I had taken a few photos … but never mind la. Do give it a try if you’re there sometime. It’s always good to catch up with him. Since he moved to Damansara Perdana, it should be easy to meet up now. After that we made our way to Laundry for a little drink. Knowing me, it’ll take forever to pick the drink that I want … since I can be quite adventurous in my selections … We bumped into a famous Hong Kong Kung Fu movie star … weird, if he’s famous, how come I didn’t recognise him? We talked a lot about life in general. You know, how little we’d think about our priorities sometimes … until something really tragic happen? Then it puts everything into perspective. You won’t know how much you miss someone until they’re gone, you won’t know how much to appreciate life until you know someone who’s passed on, you won’t know how much someone meant to you, until they’re gone … or even, to enjoy the ‘journey’ and not the destination. I know, I can be the type that could be caught up in the ‘destination’ without giving much thought to the journey. Won’t the destination be sweeter knowing the eventful journey it had taken to reach there? As cliché as this might sound, I think this is where the saying, “Stop, and smell the roses” goes. Gonna be watching Ironman with Kanmani this coming Wednesday! I believe my fanboy geekiness could had influenced her :P Oh wait … maybe it was there all along. I couldn’t get the tickets online since GSC’s website is really crappy, so I tried Cineleisure, too bad the reservations were all full. Can you believe it? I was a little down, but that’s not gonna stop me from getting the tickets … so I drove all the way to Cineleisure (without knowing if it’s possible to purchase tickets in advance) … and I got the tickets! Hey, don’t try, won’t know, right? I bought a pair of gloves yesterday for weight training. Always wanted a pair of gloves ‘coz the bars do tend to hurt the palm of my hands, the gloves will help a lot. Guess what? I bought 2 sizes too small. What the heck. I did try … and it fitted nicely, somehow today it didn’t …. In fact, it was too tight. Hands don’t increase in size overnight, right? Haha. I managed the return the gloves for a new pair … after some ‘negotiations’. Ahem. Anyways, I’m pretty psyched up for Ironman! Looking forward to Wednesday AND the long weekend! Umm still not sure if I want to take Friday off or maybe just work from home. I could drop by AYA and Flatfish for a visit since I haven’t been there quite a while already. It should be nice. I’m a little bummed out that the weekend is gonna be over soon. Time seems to fly REALLY fast. I don’t want to be caught up in the midst of things without appreciating what each day has to offer. Stop to smell the roses? ;) 0 comments Thursday, April 24, 2008
5 Years Old
[ 11:20 pm ] Oh wow ... just realised that this blog is 5 years old now. I went through some of the JUNK I wrote back in 2003. Wish I could delete them. So childish ... lol. But it was good to read back some of the things I wrote. Oh well, at least I'm happy with where I am today. 0 comments
Drawing II
[ 10:40 pm ] I couldn't get the office all-in-one printer/fax/scanner/copier to work ... so I scanned this from home. "Share with your friends what you're doing, with a camera phone." Ok, this was what I came up with. A mad scientist, YOU, having no date on a Friday night, spends his time in the lab. The second picture shows a sheep activist (no such this as a sheep activist la) running for his life from ... sheeps. I thought sheeps were funny ... kinda reminded me of that movie Black Sheep. Come on ... being chased by cute sheeps is kinda funny ... right? "Saw something weird? Something cute? Something exciting? Share it with your friends .. blah blah blah ..." I can't remember the lines exactly ... but I came up with this. Ok la, not very original ... UFO? Ok what. Blind date with 3 eyes ... that's gonna be fun. "Ever wanted to be a citizen reporter? Now you can!" Ok, I can't remember this line either ... anyways, the idea was to snap a photo of a burglar climbing over the fence, while the other is ... a rampaging dinosaur? I think I'll add in KLCC into the picture tomorrow. I can't wait to put these into Illustrator and colour them! Adding colours should be fun. I'm hoping they'll choose, all of it :P Looks like it's gonna be a busy day tomorrow. 0 comments
Drawing.
[ 4:45 pm ] I've been drawing the whole day today ... I really hate drawing people, 'coz I just feel I'm bad at it. The funny thing is ... I'm getting a kick out of this. I guess this is a good break from the monotonous web and graphic designing I'm doing. I can't wait to scan and colour it in Illustrator! I wonder how many will they pick for broadcast? Anyways, back to drawing. 0 comments Friday, April 18, 2008
Bugger ... I mean, bumper.
[ 2:00 pm ] Hmmm ... my back bumper got scratched ... judging from it, looks like it was done by a car that was reversing out. What the heck. Some of it is quite deep and I doubt I'd be able wash it off. Sigh. This ruins my mood for the day. I thought I'd be able to keep the car in an immaculate condition ... what is this?! AARRGGHHHH. Never mind ... I shall ... scrub it clean .... 0 comments Thursday, April 17, 2008
Thoughts ... updates!
[ 5:06 pm ] I'm taking a few minutes off and ... write something ... heh. Been busy with more creative work, I'm quite happy with it actually. Flexing the creative muscles were good exercise, haven't had any interesting work in quite a while now ... been working on websites alone is rather boring, so it was good that I could do a little presentation. Thoroughly enjoyable. Will be going to KLCC convention Centre this coming Saturday for the ASTRO NCA event ... argh, have to usher people to their seats. Volunteer work, huh? To be frank, I didn't want to, I'm a lousy usher anyways ... how to turn down when Shirley personally call you and asked if you could volunteer? Very hard to say no, hor? I think I'm suppose to be ushering celebrities since I don't get STAR STRUCK. Come on man ... I couldn't care less if they are celebrities. So what? Just smile lor, usher them to their seats ... while I ponder about life and the many colours of the rainbow. Ok ... I ABSOLUTELY have NO EXPECTATIONS at all. Is that good or bad? Argh ... there goes my Saturday. Home cells are starting soon and I don't really know where I wanna be ... or if I'm really interested. Ooops. Spoke my mind there. I like how Ps. Sandra joked about people eventually finding their life partners there ... or don't jump around just hoping to be in the same cell as the person you have a crush on. Man ... I couldn't relate to that. I suddenly felt too old to care anymore. If I was in my early 20's, yeah, heck, I'd be damn excited man. WOOOHOO MIXED CELL GROUPS, FINALLY! But ... really, I'm ashamed to say this ... I just can't feel it anymore. I'm not excited. Now, before you start pointing your pitchfork at me, I'm being honest here, and I'm pretty sure a lot of people aren't feeling the same way as I do. So, this is my personal problem. I know the importance of planting myself in a cell group to grow, and I WANT to. It's the decision making that's killing me, we were told to tick only a single location to belong to ... I ticked 5!! So what am I worried about? What if I'm in a group that's filled with really weird people? People that I can't connect? Heck, there are even leaders that I don't respect (hey, I'm always watching, so don't lecture me. Konon leader, but just ain't the example of one. Sorry, can't follow you.) Now, who wants a difficult person like me around? Really? I'm just gonna ask a bunch of question that they'll hate answering ... what a thorn! But isn't it great? Just when you think you're happy in your little group ... and along comes someone like me to disrupt the harmony? >:D Stop being a sourpuss! Yeah, I should :) Getting too old for all these. Ok, just be happy where they place me. There. Happy? Something weird happened to my guitar ... suddenly it sounds good. I know, it's weird. Maybe it's the strings setting in ... umm ... that doesn't make sense. But, hey! I ain't complaining! It sounds good and I'm happy ... for the moment. Can't lust over another guitar till I save up enough money again ... sigh. I'm enjoying myself in the band, still gotta practice a lot more to match the level of skills of the overall band :\ I'm still working on my tempo ... weird, how come I can't feel it when they tell me I'm out of tempo ... I can't tell! Hmmmm ... Anyways, LIFE Retreat is coming up pretty soon ... again. This time it's gonna be in Frasers Hill. Hmmm ... argh, I don't know what to feel about this whole thing again. I keep asking myself do I wanna go? I don't know man. What if it's gonna be like the previous years? What's new this time? Thinking of inviting someone, not sure if it'll even interest that person. Hmmm ... don't try, won't know right? Hmmm ... what can you do up at Frasers? Well ... there's still another month plus to think about this. A lot of things can happen in this course of time. You know, was thinking about what I hope to achieve by end of this year. Man, I really don't know what to expect, because whatever that I've planned will be messed by Him. So, maybe instead, I should be asking ... what He has in store for me this year? Saya tak tahu. Will I do really well in my job? Will I improve my guitar skills? Will I be better behaved (haha)? Will I meet someone that I'll really like? Will I be taken to another level of responsibility? Will I make LOADS of money (hey, can dream, why not)? No point thinking about these things. 0 comments Wednesday, April 09, 2008
Yawn.
[ 4:49 pm ] Been listening to the Boundless.org podcast these few days. Quite interesting :) Good stuff. This was how we wanted D2Y2 radio to be, but somehow it didn't happen la. Maybe sometime in the future ... Don't feel like blogging now ;) 0 comments Friday, April 04, 2008
Lessons.
[ 9:53 pm ] Depress. I HAVE to go through this every month. Argh ... it’s that time of the month to settle the bills and everything, and I really, really LOATHE it. Last month was particularly tough. The insurance bill came, I was charged double by Fitness First, flight tickets to Kuching for Erica’s wedding, etc. All I’m seeing is money going out. With a heavy heart, I drove myself to the ATM machine in SS15 to withdraw the money for the bills. With every press of the digits I was thinking, am I’m going to go through this every month? I began to grumble. How come I’m not able to save this time round? I worked the math in my head, how come I’m not saving as much? As I walked out, all that was in my head was mental calculations of my expenditures and future expenses AND calculation how much I’ll try to save this month … totally oblivious to my surrounding. There she was. A lady, hanging around outside the ATM machines selling Chinese biscuits. She stopped and asked if I wanted to buy any? I smiled and shook my head, and began to walk off until I heard her said, “Please support a single mother”. I stopped, turned around and took a look at her basket. She spoke good English and was reassuring me that her goods were Halal … ummm … then I told her that I’m not Malay. I bought those sticky jelly siew pau thingy (argh, what’s the name?!) from her and she said thank you and God bless You. I walked to my car feeling much better than I did before. What are my problems compared to a struggling single mother selling Chinese biscuits outside a bank to make ends meet? I felt a little ashamed of my short sightedness. The bills I am going to pay are all privileges to the things I have and the conveniences I enjoy. Why complain? Be thankful that you are paying for a car, paying for insurance, paying to FLY to see your friend get married, paying to go to the gym to workout, etc. Be thankful. I came home, did the bills and that’s it. I can’t believe I even thought about my tithe, can you believe it? No la, didn’t want to cheat, but I did had that thought … what if I didn’t pay …? My gawd … can’t believe I even thought about that. Immediately I took the money and put it into the tithe envelop and sealed it. There, I can’t rob God now. Out of sight, out of mind and into the offering bag this Sunday. I know I won’t be seeing the guitar anytime soon this year … Sigh. 0 comments
Maybe tomorrow.
[ 3:55 pm ] I keep thinking That there’s something I should say. I keep hoping That there’s some prayer I could pray That would make you want to unpack your bags And come back home to stay. Maybe tomorrow But not today. I keep waiting For a distraction for this pain. I keep looking For the magic pill that I could take That would make these memories of you And me just go away. Maybe tomorrow But not today. Something keeps telling me That this is not the end But I don’t know how long I can Hold on to where we’ve been. I keep trying To justify my faith. I keep wondering If I’m gonna wake up some day Cause sometimes I think it might be time To let you walk away. Maybe tomorrow But not today. I like this song. It's by Jeff Caylor ... a recent discovery, really nice music. Suppose to go dinner later, not sure if it's still on, oh well. 0 comments Thursday, April 03, 2008
Squints.
[ 4:20 pm ] I'm taking a short break ... eyes are getting tired, I need to stare and focus on other things ... argh ... not good for the eyes. *Squints* I finally took the time today to go to the bank and get some things done. Collected my CC that I didn't bother collecting since January and activated my Internet banking. Need to keep a closer tab on my expenditures. Ok, enough rest. Back to work! 0 comments Tuesday, April 01, 2008
Awe.
[ 11:18 am ] The greatest love that anyone could ever know That overcame the cross and grave to find my soul And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home I'll trust in You ... I love this song. Very simple lyrics and yet it's always the first 2 lines that chokes me. There's no way I can ever repay this. 0 comments Archives nothing |
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