about me A loner, although do enjoy the occasional companionship, if you can handle it. Enjoys long term friendships, sensitive, ponders a lot about life and people. Monday, March 30, 2009
Comfort?
[ 5:06 pm ] Finally after almost half a century, Mr. Eric replied my email. He seems to be doing fine, it's good to be able to keep in touch with them over there. I do miss the companionship. London seems to have a lousy weather ... so lousy that when you type "(london)" on Skype, it changes to the rain emoticon lol. I'm still aiming to pay them a visit next year, I don't know how, but I believe He will provide a way! I had a good Friday night spending some time with YS over at Starbucks ... umm 'sharing' MP3s :P Good to know someone who's interested in Jazz music. I recently ... umm 'procured' about 4GB worth of Latin Jazz, Bossanova, Louge and Cafe music from Kanmani ... haha ... she's a great source for music. Jamiroquio is coming down to Malaysia to perform for the Sepang F1 after party event! I really want to go but, I don't fancy paying for an F1 ticket. Hey, maybe I'll bump into him at some convenience store round the corner in London? I was a little upset that I dropped a RM10 note. I kinda realised that it was missing from my pocket when I went to the bakery. Hey, money is money man ... every dollar seems to count now. Guess what? This morning my mom found the RM10 in my car :D And that's 2 days worth of parking there! I'm starting to sound like a stinge =X I woke up with a weird dream yesterday. Dreamt that Rachel was crying ... instead of tears of sadness, it was of joy. So, I woke up and SMS to ask what she happy about. Talk about being random hahahaha. Fasting has been ok. Just 'ok'. I haven't seen nor experienced any breakthroughs but I believe everything is just perfect in His timing. BUT that doesn't stop me from bugging Him. I'm gonna BUG HIM until He cannot tahan. I was reading something really interesting yesterday, which was a prelude to something YS mentioned about Word of Knowledge, Word of Wisdom & Discerning of Spirits. The 9 gifts of the Holy Spirit. The part that caught my attention was the gift of Prophecy. "If the message being delivered is coming through the avenue of simple prophecy (not the 5 fold ministry calling of a Prophet) it will bring real encouragement & build up rather than tear down. The simple gift of Prophecy edifies, exhort and comforts. It will bring peace, love & joy to the recipient or recipients that it is intended for."To edify, exhort and comfort! Sorry, may be a little old for the most of you older Christians, but this is a little new-ish to me. I've always thought Prophecy is well, 'about the future' ... but it's more than that. Now you know what it means to 'Prophecy to one another'. Ok, need to double check, this is line of thought correct? Sila comment, thanks. I have a great idea in my head! At least I think it's awesome ... I need to start compiling down my ideas and see if we can work something out of it. 0 comments Sunday, March 29, 2009
Hmm
[ 12:48 am ] I had the opportunity to visit CHC this evening. It was really pouring ... we had to use an umbrella (duh?) Anyways, Ps. Kong couldn't make it for this service due to some pressing matters, so it's been postponed to May instead. The whole service, culture and how things are run in that church was a little eye opener to me. There were a number of things that I didn't like. Oh, sorry, I'm being judgmental. But there are really some things that I disagree on ... not gonna mentioned it here. Arghh ... I have so many thoughts but I can't write it down here. Better not ... ANYWAYS, we had dinner with YS's cell. Ok dinner, though I wished people did bother getting to know us. Oh well, doesn't matter if it felt like a chore. If I can remember everyone's name, why is it sometimes people can't? It's not that difficult you know. Yes, I do get upset and disappointed when ... nmind. Going negative again hahaha. We had better fellowship at Coffee Bean instead :P We were suppose to meet up with my bangla friend as well, but he couldn't make it. ok, my thoughts are all over the place, not a good time to blog. Oh yeah, I love the audio bible ... gonna go get one! It's like listening to a bedtime story! 0 comments Thursday, March 26, 2009
Relax no tax?
[ 8:14 pm ] We went to the tax department today to get ‘Nerd Attack’ a tax file, since we can’t sign up as publishers for OVI’s store without a Tax ID. Guess what, we were turned away :\ What the heck? Is there such a thing as, so as long you have yet to generate any income for the company, you can’t have a tax file? I think this is preposterous. Here we are, responsible and law abiding citizens of Malaysia trying to register the business only to be turned away and told to come back next year. Bodoh. I think they are just lazy. Anyone familiar with Malaysian taxes can advice? I’ve contacted Nokia, waiting for their reply. Bleh … Oh yeah, didn’t really mentioned it here before … the new company name is ‘Nerd Attack IT Consultancy’, unofficially … I just like to call it Nerd Attack. I think it’s a cool name. Wern Shen said I will regret it 10 years down the road, well then … when that time comes, we’ll be celebrating because we lasted 10 years instead of wishing we had chosen a better name. I’m burning Heroes now from my hard disk, running out of space. I plan to pass copies to YS as well. How can someone NOT watch Heroes? Must convert! I’m not so worried about the last day of work next month. So be it. Every phase in life always progresses to greater and better things (at least, that’s what I believe, so don’t tell me what I can’t believe in). Even if we fail in the process, at least we tried. 0 comments Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Regular stuff
[ 7:00 pm ] You know what? There's really nothing much to eat around where I work. I don't know what I'm gonna eat for this 21 days of fasting. Can't survive on Roti Canai everyday, right? I don't think my colleagues would want to have Indian food everyday either ... doesn't matter, I'm sure there are other stuff that I can eat. I had vegetarian friend noodles today ... I couldn't taste much of the noodles except for the GENEROUS amount of cabbage and carrots in it. I felt like a rabbit. This leads me to realise that it's not easy being a vegetarian. I've might have mentioned this a couple of times already, thanks to someone, I've found myself listening to a lot more audio lately. Ahh spiritual food ... but everyday is still a struggle. But hey, what's life without the little 'jolts' ? I'll be paying CHC a visit this Saturday since Ps. Kong will be sharing. I've not been to CHC before, heard a lot of different stories ... but some things are better experienced yourself instead of listening to 'stories'. Hmmm ... what to expect? ACTS is still my home :P Oh yeah, I finally converted my DiGi prepaid into DiGi Ambassador plan ... and my first bill was only RM10.60. As far as I can remember, I've always been a DiGi supporter. Started off with their prepaid pack back in 1997, and that's how long I've been using my number! Loyal customer, eh? And now, with their 3G network upgrade ... I want video calls man! What's the point of me having a phone with a front facing camera when I can't make video calls? I hope this will be implemented soon :P Two 'doors' have closed before me, guess they were not meant to be. I guess it's for the better, now I have less things to worry about :) Better and exciting days to come! I had dinner yesterday with YS and 38. Kinda made them have porridge with me ... ironically, I had yam rice instead. Hah! And there was meat in it ... haih ... have to pick it out. Since when do people put meat inside yam rice? Speaking of yam rice, I used to hate it alot ... but I guess, like other things in life (bitter gourd, eggplant, oatmeal, ok, mostly food related) that you learn to appreciate as you grow older, yam rice is probably one of them. After dinner, kinda helped Aunty Susy changed her florescent light ... I feel, useful :P My mom does most of the 'man' stuff in the house. As far as I can remember, I don't recall ever seeing my dad helped out with the plumbing, lights, etc. My mom is pretty handy. Secretly I know she likes tool boxes. Now, you're thinking ... what are the sons doing? Well, we usually get shoo-ed away because we approach things differently from her. Do it her way, or the highway. In my case, no way :D 0 comments Sunday, March 22, 2009
Running
[ 8:22 pm ] You know, I’m pretty sure at some point in our life, we secretly wish we were somewhere else, where no one knows you, and you hope to start all over again. A clean slate. But you know what? We can run all we want; sooner or later we’ll find that things will probably be the same in that new environment. Why? It’s not the environment; it is what’s inside of you that need to be worked on. Just had that thought in my head this afternoon, though I’d share? 1 comments Saturday, March 21, 2009
Elephant Pot
[ 10:11 pm ] Suppose to go My Elephant today with a certain snob since we didn't manage to go the last round. Well, guess what? They were closed today !@#!$ Upon reading the paper pasted on the glass door, they are only open for dinner on weekends. HAIYOHHHHH ... what a waste of time. Guess we'll be making another trip here again -_- Maybe this is a good thing since I'm on Daniel Fast for the next 20 days. What's the point of going to a Thai restaurant when you can't really eat the stuff you're suppose to eat, right? We drove to Tea Pot cafe instead, since we wanted to try the oh-so-famous-you-must-go cafe in SS2. The place was really gaudy. There were plenty of tea pots alright, there's only 2 person I'd imagine that would like the decor here is, Ps. Sandra and Sunil hahaha. Ok la, I like the place ... pretty cozy. It gets packed REAL fast, and you could be left standing there waiting for seats since they aren't practicing any numbering system. I couldn't really get a proper lunch here (Vegetarian), so I had waffles instead, while Kanmani had Chicken Kiev. Her eyes are bigger than her stomach sometimes. Sorry, all the time. Since I had a penchant for tea ... we ordered a pot of Italian Almond tea. It smells ... nutty, which really isn't that bad. Call me jakun ... but I haven't seen a tiny sieve like this for tea. Jakun :D As you can see, this is a cup of tea. Italian Almond tea ... smells like almond, tastes like tea, pretty sure it's not from Italy. Eh, how else to describe tea la. The snob's Chicken Kiev. I can't comment how it tastes like, but judging from the smell, it's pretty good. I had the fries only though :\ This was my lunch ... 2 waffles with maple syrup and vanilla ice-cream. I don't know which brand of ice-cream they used, but it's pretty nice. I love the waffles. And the famous scones! Served with cream and strawberry jam. I love scones btw ... makes anyone with broken English feels very English :P All in all, it was a good meal ... though it certainly would be better if I actually had some meat. Pretty nice place to hang out and catch up with friends. As for the price, our meal costs us RM47, which Kanmani gladly forked out for :P Eh! I'm going jobless! Feed the poor! Hey YS, I'll bring you here one day! :) After lunch/tea, I went to pay Jenny a visit at 3K's bazaar. She opened a booth to sell some of her homemade accessories. Don't ever get a guy to sell/promo ladies accessories ... it's weird. I was suppose just drop by and say 'hi' and cabut but ended up staying an extra hour. That's the tiny 'stall' there :P Respect to those girls out there doing this as a hobby. 0 comments Friday, March 20, 2009
Powwaaah
[ 1:05 am ] Sometimes I get really sick just reading the newspaper, not because of the smell from the ink ... but from I read about our politicians. I've always wondered why there's a desire for power. Why do people hunger for power? Have a look at some of our politicians, why do they fight tooth and nail for power? It's all about power and authority and seldom about the welfare of the people. Look at the emotions involved and look at their supporters. What are they supporting? Are they supporting a person or a cause? What is the 'cause' then? Why are they supporting an individual and not a cause? Forgive my nooblet understanding of politics. To me, this is what I think things should had been. Politicians represent the people and are voted into power through our democratic system, right? Therefore their main role is to serve the needs of the people that placed them into power, and that includes their welfare. Why would I want to vote for you when you're not going to serve me. You are in the very beginning a public servant. You serve the needs of the public. You aren't placed high up on a pedestal to be worshiped and revered. I seriously wonder, do they genuinely care about people? I get really disgusted with photos on smiley VIPs at events ... especially a particular one few years ago about the cleanliness of public toilets in KL. We see the VIP and a few of his aides posing in front of the camera holding brooms as if washing the toilet. Wonderful photo opportunities. Why the need for this? Does it hold any significance? You know what would really amount to something? Seeing them REALLY cleaning a toilet and not for photo opportunity. Find me a person like that, I will vote them to office every election. I don't like politicians posing for photo opportunities. It's very fake and an insult to our intelligence. Politicians planting trees, visiting hospital wards, visiting the poor, while all these are noble ... these aren't real. It's all for show. I want to see someone REALLY planting not a tree but trees, without someone first digging a hole in the ground for you. I want to know that you visited a hospital ward and spent time with the hardcore poor without journalists being invited along. Matthew 6:1-4 1 "Be especially careful when you are trying to be good so that you don't make a performance out of it. It might be good theater, but the God who made you won't be applauding. 2-4"When you do something for someone else, don't call attention to yourself. You've seen them in action, I'm sure—'playactors' I call them— treating prayer meeting and street corner alike as a stage, acting compassionate as long as someone is watching, playing to the crowds. They get applause, true, but that's all they get. When you help someone out, don't think about how it looks. Just do it—quietly and unobtrusively. That is the way your God, who conceived you in love, working behind the scenes, helps you out.Every morning that I read the papers and sometimes wonder to myself, what are these clowns doing? Aren't they suppose to be running the country and making sure someone like Ah Chong who lives down the road, Ahmad who has 5 kids to feed and Siva who has an ailing mother to take care of, still have jobs to keep. What is wrong with people? Since when have the roles changed?? Since when do people have to serve you, whom we voted. You are supposed to be serving us, not your own needs. Why do I have a feeling that most of them are motivated by greed rather than the desire to see a nation grow? 0 comments Thursday, March 19, 2009
Sermons
[ 12:58 pm ] You know you've been listening to too much sermons on your laptop in office when the speaker says, "If anyone believe in this, please raise up your hand" and you nearly did raise up your hand in office. 0 comments Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Provisions
[ 6:09 pm ] I have no thoughts for today :D Okay, maybe some. While I was waiting for the results for the Nokia N97 Widget competition results to be announced, it was moved to Wednesday. They seem to be moving the dates a lot. Well, someone was a little more positive and said that gives us more time to pray about it. I like that thought. My old wallet has been thinning my jeans pocket, now there are 2 holes caused by the corners. Sigh. How do you patch a jeans pocket? Sure look darn ugly. I don't feel like spending money on a pair of jeans, well, not now. I had the brilliant idea of swapping the left pocket to the right. Smart, eh? Haven't done it yet. My mom said that was a really lousy idea hahaha. Aiyah ... dunno what to do with the pocket! Patching it makes it look dumb. I have a spare wallet lying around ... so I'm using that now. I finally got rid of the wallet my ex gave me 10 years ago. Gosh, I've been using it for 10 years. Sentimental, huh. It's still a good wallet though ... back into the shoebox you go. I know my mom has been going through my shoebox, I have quite a kepoh mom. But I don't really care now, she can do what she want, end of the day, the guilt is on her >:) This kinda reminds me of the time when she secretly read my diary when I was 12 ... and then she told my aunties about it and I was teased till kingdom come for it. That was also when my dad gave me an advice, "Learn to hide things that are private and important to you". And now she wonders why I keep certain parts of my live private from her :D Actually, if you think about it, when adults tease and make fun of a kid, it does stunt their personal growth and self-confidence. I have to consciously remind myself of that. There are some things that I have confidence about, while there are others that I'm quite unsure of. I find it ironic that sometimes the one that we see full of confidence often struggle with low self-esteem. I'm starting not to trust my eyes that much now, but to feel things through. I'm a little worried about how things will be like at the of next month. I know ... I can quote you all the bible verses about 'worries', but sometimes you can't help being human. I don't know what to expect. While I try to remain positive about all this, sometimes it's really difficult when your financial security is gone, lol. Perhaps this is a practical lesson in faith that I have to experience myself. At least I know God won't give me a test that I can't pass, right? :P Please la, you don't see God's people begging for bread. He provides. 0 comments Monday, March 16, 2009
Bad time/Good time
[ 3:08 pm ] Wern Shen says: but yeah now is a bad time Ray says: yeah Wern Shen says: question is is it ever a GOOD time hahahah Ray says: for ppl with money now is a good time for ppl without money now is a bad time 0 comments
Tired
[ 1:36 am ] What a super tiring day ... and yes, I'm still tired and not rested. Aren't I suppose to be sleeping now? But ... but ... my Sunday will be wasted! Had to serve for all 3 services today, that can really drain a person but I'm learning not to complain about it, since I've signed up for this and readily accept the commitment that comes with it. I was a little concerned about how my guitar sounded last Thursday and today ... it just didn't sound right. Something wasn't right ... I know how my guitar sounds like on the house speakers and monitors ... but something is wrong, it just didn't sound the same. I started to worry that it might be caused by the cracks and different thoughts began to fill my mind. "Ahhhh crud, really need to fix the guitar now". I thought it was apt that Pastor Kenneth shared about Fear and threats. That was fear. The thoughts of spending money on something that's important to me ... when I don't have much money to spend. You know what I mean? Finally after both services I realised something amissed. Last Thursday a certain someone borrowed my guitar ... and the phaser button was switched on. *slaps forehead* NO WONDER IT SOUNDED WEIRD. So ... I'm happy once again, with the cracks on the guitar and all, hah .... I finally dismantled my table, now my room is ready to be painted PEACH. It's gonna look awesome I tell ya. Thinking of changing the white lights to warm lights. Not sure how that's gonna affect my reading, but we'll see how. I think I might need to invest in a new table. I hate spending money on these things, dah-la money running low, now have to buy table. Sigh. Ok ... I'm dozing off .... 0 comments Saturday, March 14, 2009
Cleaning up
[ 8:17 pm ] The painters needed to paint my room next Monday, so I had to get rid of whatever junk that I've been hoarding. I need to dismantle my computer table ... and I usually don't like to touch whatever that's already been set up properly. Do you know how many wires are there? I have WAYYY too many wires under my table. I'll probably dismantle it tomorrow evening when I get home from church. Mom said I'll come home grumpy and not wanting to dismantle the table. I'll prove her wrong :P I think I'm a sentimental old man. I never realise the amount of junk ... umm I mean, mementos that I've collected over the span of a decade. Ok, more than a decade. It took me a loooooooong time to decide which to throw and keep. Kinda hard to decide. I don't even know why I'm keeping my college text books. They aren't even relevant now, since everything is pretty much out of date already. I even kept my lecture notes. It's kinda fun going through your notes again, well, most of them don't make much sense now. Which leads me to believe that I knew a lot more than I know now. I decided to snap photos of ... my junk. Rachel got me these Sushi erasers from the States back in Dec 2007. I don't know what to do with them. I mean, they are erasers ... but, who in their right mind would want to use it? It's too nice. So, I left them on the table. You see that shelf up there? It's really ugly, but I've been using this shelf since I was in Form 4. My mom made this for me, so that's why I've been keeping it for so long. I remembered her using extra wood from the bed post and some other spare planks lol ... oh yes, my mom is very handy. I painted it btw ... I had this grand design in my head, but I gave up after realising that it would take a really long time to paint. Sadly, this shelf went out the door and into the bin. Now I'm left without a shelf to place my things. These are some stuff that needs to be ... somewhere. I don't know where to hide them, I mean, place them. Oh look, Mia Palencia's CD. My brother gave me this as a birthday present 2 years ago. Haven't been used yet since my car already comes with a pair of in-built tweeters ... Sunil got me this for my birthday 2 years ago as well ... and it's still sealed. I don't have a need for containers at the moment ... and it's too nice to be used as a container :\ I like the art on it, so I guess he has taste. These are movie tickets that I've kept since my very first movie back in 1997. I don't know why I've been keeping them ... almost seems like a collection. GSC tickets used to be brown in colour and TGV used to be light green. I went through some of the tickets ... I guess I was really too free 'coz some of the movies were really bad. Don't know how I could had watched them. Most of the tickets were single ... yeah, I used to watch movies alone. I don't think there's anything peculiar about it. I HAD one of the nicest handwriting in the world. Now ... I rely on the keyboard more than writing with a pen. And these were my text books. Sent all of it to the recycle centre ealier this evening. I'm a gamer. The amount of games that I've played ... yeah, I was quite free. There's really a LOT of junk there. I've stopped buying CDs already ... why buy when you can download? *cough* This is my favourite screwdriver ... and will continue to be my favourite. I get annoyed and agitated when I can't find this. Why? A guy can't have a favourite screwdriver now, is it? One section of cupboard is allocated for IT peripheral boxes ... where I should be placing my clothes instead. My mom has been nagging me to clean this cupboard for ... years now. I don't know why I'm still keeping the boxes. The boxes are useless!! So ... I cleared the whole cupboard today and got rid of all the boxes. See that box up there? That's my very first modem and into the world of Internet back in 1997. A 36.6k modem priced at RM360. That's crazy man. And .. this is all junk .. lol. I came across this while cleaning up. That's me when I was 9. My dad and I were at Holiday Plaza, JB and came across this booth where they were using dot matrix printers to print photos. I think at that time, it was quite a high tech achievement. It's a little dirty now, but I don't want to wash it since it's printed on. It's a little ironic looking at this now and realise how much someone means to you, only when they are gone. I'm still not done cleaning up ... argh. My precious Saturday gone ... 0 comments Friday, March 13, 2009
Reply-all
[ 11:41 am ] I get annoyed. Sometimes easily, sometimes it takes a while, sometimes for good reasons and sometimes for little things ... where am I getting at? My mom decided to repaint the whole house, IMMEDIATELY. I thought, yeah why not, since the paint is already peeling and mouldy. The painters came really early this morning while I was still in bed (hence annoyed), and she was no where to be seen. So I got up and let them in ... and grumbled a little as my morning was ruined (I'm not a morning person). Later when she came home, I asked, will they be coming in on Saturday and Sunday as well? They will be painting on Saturday. Do you know what that means? My Saturday is ruined. I won't have access to my OWN room, living room, let's just say ... the whole house. What the heck do you want me to do? I asked why not get them to continue on Monday? To this suggestion I got an undeserving lecture from my mom. Sometimes, I don't get her. I really don't. "These people are labourers, they need to work. They are not lucky like you. Don't paint your room la if you think it's troublesome." HOW IS THIS RELEVANT to my suggestion? Like I said. I don't get my mom. Wish my dad was still around, at least he GETS me. So, I retorted, "Ok, don't have to paint my room since I never had a problem with the colours anyway." I'm really ok if my room isn't painted, I never asked for it. Getting them to come back on Monday wasn't a bad suggestion, since they need 10 days to have the whole house painted, and weekdays none of us are around ... hence less occupants in the house and that makes it easier to paint. I realise not everyone sees your point. I can accept that. What I can't accept is imposing it on others. That is draconian. But, I still love my mom. Though there are PLENTY of things we don't agree on, I know the way she loves me can be very ... different. There, done. End of story. Annoyance number 2, waking up to find out that I've been SPAMMED by people who don't have the simplest email etiquette. Don't reply-all la ... unless it's necessary or if you know everyone on the list. Email is not a chat utility, so don't treat it like chat. What's wrong with you people? Do I need to start an Internet etiquette class? Or do I need to petition to every email software developers to remove the reply-all button? Seriously, what is wrong with these people? Do they even realise there's more than 50 people on that list? AND I don't like to receive replies from strangers on that list. I don't need to know whether you can make it for some karaoke or not. I'm not interested. Heck, I'm not even interested in the first mail to begin with!!! WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE!? I know there are some that will probably be upset, but I don't mind, just don't expect me to be silent about it. Don't hit the reply-all button. Is this some kind of obsessive compulsive disorder? I don't know, please enlighten me if you disagree. Bah. There, done. Oh yeah, I got 3 VIP passes for Malaysian Dreamgirl event at Mist Club, Bangsar on the 16th of this month. I don't think I'd want to attend. Let me know if you are interested. Malaysia Dream what? This one. Yeah ... the thought of hanging around 'models' must be tempting ... but I have no interest. Can't find anyone willing to go with me anyways :P 0 comments Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Perceptions
[ 11:15 pm ] We had a presentation to do at KWSP this morning, only knew about it yesterday ... kinda last minute, but I think I did what I could best. Was a little nervous but I know He's in control. But hey, I think it's pretty awesome to know someone kept this in prayer. You 'wow'-ed me. Really, thanks. :) Isn't it humbling to be in want? I think it is. Without going into details, I guess this is a lesson that I have to learn on my own. To really rely on Him. Arrghh .... tough. Over these past few days, I've been reminded over and over again on Proverbs 3:5-12. This isn't the first time. Maybe it's a gentle reminder abouth the struggle my flesh has to go through. "... lean not on your own understanding." Do you have any idea how TOUGH that is? For someone who's always constantly wanting to know how things work, wanting to find solutions, wanting to fix problems, etc etc etc ... bleh ... it's hard. But you know what, I've come to a juncture that I have no choices left but to rely on Him. I don't EVEN want to rely on what 'experiences' I've had, but just to simply follow my Sheppard. I found that having encouragement is 'nice' ... having someone to actually believe in what you're doing is just ... great. Time to quit being a lone ranger, huh? As humbling as it is, I am actually learning from someone who is so much younger than me ... humility, humility :) Earlier this week I had dinner with a certain person. A lot of things were going through my mind ... things like ... "Ehhh ... what am I doing?", "Ehh ... actually, I don't feel like it", "Ehh ... what the heck am I doing?", " Ehhh ... what is going on" ... I continued having all these thoughts going through my head while in the shower, walking to the car, and eventually arriving and picking that person up ... and towards dinner. Haha ... I'm glad I went for dinner. I had a good time of course, and a lot of my preconceptions were removed. It's really shallow of me sometimes. But I remembered what Kanmani said, "How can you have preconceive ideas of a person without getting to know them well first?". I DON'T KNOW OK, but at least I feel dumb about it. My perception changed. Oh yeah, 2 of my entries for the Nokia N97 Widget competition made it into the shortlist. Now all there is left to do is to vote for it at http://2009.nseries.com/competition/shortlist.aspx Vote for Today in History and Tweetly, thanks! I had hope that they would choose some of my better entries ... haaiihhh ... instead these 2 took me less than 10 minutes each to come up with :\ 0 comments Monday, March 09, 2009
Phillip oh Phillip
[ 3:40 pm ] I woke up thinking that I finally had a good night's sleep only to find out that it's only 9am. What the heck? So I forced myself to sleep again HAHAHAHAHAHA The house is pretty empty at the moment, both my siblings are at Life Retreat. Oh, someone called me a loser for not going. Pbbttth, sticks and stones might break my bones, words alone will not crush my soul. Ok, I made that up. David's wedding was last Saturday, it was pretty ok. It was a bit of a culture adjustment for me. After attending a number of weddings in Acts it's good to experience how other people are doing it. It's different alright. I won't elaborate on what were the differences, but good experience nonetheless. Sigh. Pastor Kenneth was preaching about Phillip, it never occurred to me that he was a thinker. His thought process were similar to mine. "Show me first, then I'll believe" but that's not what Faith is, isn't it? Even as I struggle to TRY to live by faith, my flesh often reason with me. Always wanting to know more, show me something concrete so that I know it's You. You know what I mean? So I have to humbly admit, I've often robbed myself of God's very own blessings. As such ... I'm ever more open now to believe things differently ... which explains some of the decisions that I'm about to make. I believe opportunities are always there, just that it's yet to be discovered ... to be more, ahem, Christian sounding, opened doors. Yesterday's meeting with that person opened up a whole new opportunity for me, as I kept on asking God these few things. "Is he bullshitting?", "Is he for real?", "Can I trust him?". Hey, consulting mah ... have to ask these questions. Sometimes when things sound too good to be true, it's only wise to be careful. BUT, at the same time, I might just missed a perfect opportunity. At the end of the meeting, I kinda made the decision already, but needed some time to think things through, what have I got to lose? Secretly in my heart (God knows) I've been hating to write dumb cover letters, resumes and cleaning up my portfolios, so I wanted something that would skip all that. Why not? Heh ... I realised I got what I asked for. How can someone believe you when they haven't even seen what you can do? That baffles me. So ... I took it as maybe it was His doing. Ok, by Faith, I'll go. If it doesn't work out, doesn't matter. Just go. Hahahhaa ... AND ... another thing, a little more personal. I finally admit that I'm picky. There, end of story. Oh, yesterday someone asked if I reached home safely. I thought that was ... weird ... ok, not weird, just unexpected. I mean, I've never told anyone if I've reached home safe ... it's just something I would ask someone, but never been at the receiving end. And yes ... I liked that. I've been checking out the Malaysian Dreamgirl competition over at http://www.malaysiandreamgirl.tv You know what? I really got no comments. Ok, actually got la a bit comment. Most of them really need to carry themselves well ... some interviews were bad. Not professional. You're in front of the camera for crying out loud. There, no more comments. 0 comments Sunday, March 08, 2009
Catch my balls
[ 3:31 pm ] Yeah ... I met a rather interesting fella that used that phrase frequently to illustrate business leverage. Very interesting business proposition, but I'll talk about that later while I slowly try to forget those 3 words from my head. 0 comments Friday, March 06, 2009
Visual Architect
[ 12:12 am ] While I'm waiting for Bleach 209 to finish downloading, I'll just pen down some of my thoughts ... better than doing nothing, right? Yes, I still watch animes and we don't call them cartoons. ANYWAYS ... Haven't been blogging these past few days as I've been attending the Nokia Code Camp at Hilton KL with Ow. I didn't know what to expect, ok I take that back, I knew what to expect ... somewhat. A little disclaimer, I don't consider myself a programmer by any measure, I still like to think of myself a ... Ummm ... VISUAL ARCHITECT! How about that? I made that up. I can code a little, but that's limited to HTML, CSS and ultra basic PHP :P The reason I signed up for the code camp was:
Eh ... the download completed ... that was fast. Oh, came back from the wedding rehearsal few hours ago. I think it's cute la ... the wedding is this Saturday, hmmm yeah ... speaking of which, I need to get my ONLY white shirt ironed. I like the purple tie that I'll be wearing :D We practiced the ballroom dance a little, and it's a good thing we did ... I really needed the refresher. Ok, Saturday, we're good to go! The goatee has to go ... what's this ... so many sacrifice for this wedding. Have to learn dancing (which wasn't that bad, it was fun), have to be clean shaven. Ok, there's only 2 :P After the rehearsal, spent some time fellowshipping (never thought I'd EVER use this word) with them. I liked it. I guess it's different when you're with people you don't know well enough yet ... or maybe because they are from another church. ACTS is still my home btw. Oh, I'm beginning to like Erin's mom. I really see grace in her ... something that I don't see often in many people her age. There's just ... grace. I don't know how else to explain, you just see it. That's all for today! Ichigo awaits me. Yeah yeah ... close to 30 and still watching animes. I say to you, why not? Some think it's dumb, while I think football is dumb :P 1 comments Monday, March 02, 2009
Ties.
[ 10:05 pm ] I recently got in contact with my cousin who's staying in Madras. I wrote him an email back in October but totally forgotten about it since he never did reply, I probably got the wrong address. Imagine my surprise when I got an email from him a few days ago. I sent the email to an inactive account :P Satish and I were childhood friends. As far as I could remember, they used to visit us every now and then when we were kids. I can't remember when was the last I saw him, 17 years ago I suppose? We don't have much contact with my dad's side of the family, but they were the closest. I have other cousins, I just never knew who they were. I remembered how we would just run around the compound and do what regular boys do. Basically ... just running around hahahahaha. When we were 10, Wall's just introduced this new Ice Cream into the market, Paddle Pop. Anyone remember that? Super weird rainbow colouring and all ... anyways, he went back to India before he could try it :P I added him on Facebook, so it should be so much easier to keep in contact from now on. I haven't been practicing on the guitar for a few weeks now. The only place where I can play comfortably is on my bed ... but I don't want to, or I'll end up falling asleep. I could play the older guitar on my chair without getting it knocked on the arm rest, but this one ... susah la .... bang here, bang there ... I need a stool. It's freaking March already. Time flies ... really fast. Two more months and I'll be out of job, and by God's grace, perhaps into something more exciting. I don't know, but one can only expect, right? I think I'll go practice a little ... 0 comments
I don't need a title
[ 12:16 am ] Nokia finally put up my widget designs on their gallery ... took them a long time as well. Honestly, I think I lost interest in that competition 'coz the voting system is grossly unfair (p/s: your can multiple vote yourself for a gazillion times just by refreshing the browser). How are you going to compete fairly with someone who has close to 100k votes? Beats me *shrugs* Anyways, I created a blog just to showcase my entries ... just 'coz I can. I'm hoping whoever is interested could just code it. http://n97widgets.wordpress.com Went for Kingdom Venture Ministry talk on how to start a business on Saturday. Good thing I decided to go for the talk. Gonna be starting a partnership together with Mr. Ow, lol. I've found interest working with mobile phones ... I guess it comes naturally since I really love gadgets. I'm not sure if this is the right move, but why not seize the opportunity? Better than sitting down and not do anything. I know I am picky. I can't see myself working for some company that would allow me the same flexibility I've enjoyed over the past few years. And the thought of looking for a job ... argh ... got a resume to spruce up, a portfolio to update and damn those cover letters to write. I don't want to go through all that again! I don't know where I'm being led to. I'm trying to see options that are available. Of course there would be sacrifices ... I'm just not ready for some of it yet. Gosh ... I really HATE uncertainties. It's no joke when someone told me that my faith would severely be tested this year. Always hold on to Him they say. Well, I'm holding on ... I just don't like the waiting. Typical problem for someone like me, but I want God to bless my endeavours. I'm gonna start making decisions by faith, let's see where's that gonna lead me. After the talk, I had a lunch appointment with a snob. Been telling her how good My Elephant was, so I brought her there. I thought I knew the way ... but ... was left wandering around for 45 minutes hahhaa. I decided that was enough and gave Yee Feng a call since she's been there a few times already, and a good thing I did ... I was in the wrong section, duh. By the time we reached there it was already passed lunch time and they were closed. Haaaaiiiihhhhhh ... then we decided to go get some errands done and come back in time for dinner. Oh course we didn't. It was a damn hot day and we lazed around Tappers at Jaya One. By the way, I'm liking Jaya One. Plenty of places to eat there! And I really love the environment ... plenty of running water, makes the place cooling. Really nice environment to work in. I don't mind working there :) I just realised that David's wedding is this coming Saturday. Time REALLY does pass you by. I've printed the A2 sized placards last week ... HUGE. Hahaha ... he wanted it huge, so I gave him HUGE :P Looking forward to the wedding :) 0 comments Archives nothing |
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