about me A loner, although do enjoy the occasional companionship, if you can handle it. Enjoys long term friendships, sensitive, ponders a lot about life and people. Monday, March 09, 2009
Phillip oh Phillip
[ 3:40 pm ] I woke up thinking that I finally had a good night's sleep only to find out that it's only 9am. What the heck? So I forced myself to sleep again HAHAHAHAHAHA The house is pretty empty at the moment, both my siblings are at Life Retreat. Oh, someone called me a loser for not going. Pbbttth, sticks and stones might break my bones, words alone will not crush my soul. Ok, I made that up. David's wedding was last Saturday, it was pretty ok. It was a bit of a culture adjustment for me. After attending a number of weddings in Acts it's good to experience how other people are doing it. It's different alright. I won't elaborate on what were the differences, but good experience nonetheless. Sigh. Pastor Kenneth was preaching about Phillip, it never occurred to me that he was a thinker. His thought process were similar to mine. "Show me first, then I'll believe" but that's not what Faith is, isn't it? Even as I struggle to TRY to live by faith, my flesh often reason with me. Always wanting to know more, show me something concrete so that I know it's You. You know what I mean? So I have to humbly admit, I've often robbed myself of God's very own blessings. As such ... I'm ever more open now to believe things differently ... which explains some of the decisions that I'm about to make. I believe opportunities are always there, just that it's yet to be discovered ... to be more, ahem, Christian sounding, opened doors. Yesterday's meeting with that person opened up a whole new opportunity for me, as I kept on asking God these few things. "Is he bullshitting?", "Is he for real?", "Can I trust him?". Hey, consulting mah ... have to ask these questions. Sometimes when things sound too good to be true, it's only wise to be careful. BUT, at the same time, I might just missed a perfect opportunity. At the end of the meeting, I kinda made the decision already, but needed some time to think things through, what have I got to lose? Secretly in my heart (God knows) I've been hating to write dumb cover letters, resumes and cleaning up my portfolios, so I wanted something that would skip all that. Why not? Heh ... I realised I got what I asked for. How can someone believe you when they haven't even seen what you can do? That baffles me. So ... I took it as maybe it was His doing. Ok, by Faith, I'll go. If it doesn't work out, doesn't matter. Just go. Hahahhaa ... AND ... another thing, a little more personal. I finally admit that I'm picky. There, end of story. Oh, yesterday someone asked if I reached home safely. I thought that was ... weird ... ok, not weird, just unexpected. I mean, I've never told anyone if I've reached home safe ... it's just something I would ask someone, but never been at the receiving end. And yes ... I liked that. I've been checking out the Malaysian Dreamgirl competition over at http://www.malaysiandreamgirl.tv You know what? I really got no comments. Ok, actually got la a bit comment. Most of them really need to carry themselves well ... some interviews were bad. Not professional. You're in front of the camera for crying out loud. There, no more comments. 0 comments Archives nothing |
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