about me A loner, although do enjoy the occasional companionship, if you can handle it. Enjoys long term friendships, sensitive, ponders a lot about life and people. Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Decisions.
[ 2:05 am ] It’s been a while. I find myself at another crossroad. Just how many crossroads do I have to come across in this life of mine? Plenty I guess … I guess every decision that I make now is starting to have a larger impact. Hmm … I’m buying a car … while everyone, well most, thinks that I’m gonna get a measly Perodua Viva … I’ve started to aim for something a little better in the long run. I really can’t imagine myself driving around a Viva for the next 7 years … but this car that I have in mind now … yeah, I can imagine myself driving it for 7 years. Wow … finally, I can AFFORD a car. I can actually AFFORD a car now … made an appointment for a test drive next Sunday, want to have a feel of the whole thing before making any commitments. I’ve been approached to be part of this year’s Christmas play … ok, I did sign up for it, but I was really expecting some minor role, I’m never into major roles nor anything that draws too much attention to yourself. I even told someone, I was thinking of quitting the whole thing before the auditions … maybe that wasn’t such a good move, I think I might had made the person think what a loser I am. So, anyways, I thought about it for quite a few days now … what do I have to lose? Only my Saturdays and Sundays for the next 2 months … quite a hefty price to pay. I love my weekends. Maybe I’m being selfish, I dunno … but 2 things stopped me from quitting. I need to stop running man … I realise that isn’t a really good example for someone to follow. Sometimes, you need to take the challenge. So yeah, I’m up for the challenge, although to be honest, I’m damn uncomfortable about acting, I can’t even act for crying out loud! Second … I wanted to leave a legacy for my children … if I ever get married and have kids, that is. I want them to be proud of their dad … ‘wow, dad did this before when he was young’. Something like a source of encouragement lah … if your father could go through this before, you can too. Am I thinking too far? Life has been quite a bore to me nowadays. I really miss a lot of things that were in the past. Maybe it’s foolish to always look to the future and seldom turn back to look at the past. There are some good memories there. I look at the past … they give me hope in a hopeless situation. Yeah … I’m in a crappy one right now. One thing at a time … one thing at a time … all will fall into place. 0 comments Archives nothing |
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