about me A loner, although do enjoy the occasional companionship, if you can handle it. Enjoys long term friendships, sensitive, ponders a lot about life and people. Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Retreat Day 3
[ 5:36 pm ] It's the final day of retreat, just woke up for breakfast, wonder how many people are up already. I slept ok today, not that great, just ok. I was the earliest for breakfast... So I sat alone. The solitude was good. I needed to get away from people and be alone. Slowly one by one people started to join... I couldn't take it anymore, so I got my second round of food and shifted to an empty table. I think I overheard them asking how come I’m anti-social. There's time for socialising and there's time for being alone. I just needed to be alone. Then again it happened... One by one, people began to fill the seats. Argh... I ate, then I left for practice. I don't know what to say about this retreat. Maybe my expectations of things were too high. Instead of feeling recharged, I feel more drained out than usual. People that I’m close to are not even in the retreat. The whole thing just felt weird to me. I am so tired now. It takes more effort to talk now. Ugh. I found it amusing, or rather enjoyable to be playing the guitar upfront. I thought I’d be nervous or something... But I felt a lot more comfortable than usual. I'd like to think it's a new strength. Maybe God wanted me to know, not to be afraid if I’m doing this for Him and not myself, maybe that's where the strength is. All fear is gone when you put Him first. 0 comments Archives nothing |
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