about me A loner, although do enjoy the occasional companionship, if you can handle it. Enjoys long term friendships, sensitive, ponders a lot about life and people. Sunday, August 05, 2007
Pray.
[ 3:20 pm ] These few days I’ve been thinking to myself … have I short-changed myself? Have I short-changed what God gave to me? My talents … have I put them into good use? How long more should I wish to be behind the scene rather than the front? I’ve come to realise maybe I’m not so much of the behind the scene kinda guy, but neither am I at the front. I gotta move myself to the centre. Everything has a progression. I need to progress myself … I think I’ve spend enough of my time making too many observations of my surroundings. How long more will I be the watcher? These two weeks I’ve been spending a lot more time with Him, and each day I find myself challenged but at the same time I see things I’ve asked being fulfilled … not entirely, but each day it gets better. It’s starting to feel funny now … I find myself enjoying praying for people. Verses I’ve never thought I’d quote appear in the head, claim and use it. Weird. As far I can remember, I was never comfortable praying for someone, but now … there is joy. I’d like to think that it’s You. I don’t know what or where You want to lead me to and to be honest, I get scared sometimes. Every time I try to move forward, things happen that breaks me, and broken I’ve become … and broken am I no longer. Making the first step is hard, You know that. You know how hard it is for me to always try to make the first step. Can’t You just make it easy for me? Yeah yeah … I will, so as long You move first, I’ll follow. Do you think it’s fair that sometimes a person is judged because of his environment? How naïve. I’m starting to feel the pressure of deadlines. I can only work so fast, and I refuse to work on a Sunday. I’m not even sure if I care about the money now. What am I doing wasting my time like the rest of the rats in the world chasing after money. My heart is not there. I don’t feel the peace. I make more than enough to even pay for a car now, buy good things, eat better, etc … but, I don’t feel the peace. I don’t know where this is heading, God. I thank You because you’re blessing me, but I rather You bless my relationships. It’s more than money or my physical needs. How long more should I go through this? I’m tired. 0 comments Archives nothing |
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