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A loner, although do enjoy the occasional companionship, if you can handle it. Enjoys long term friendships, sensitive, ponders a lot about life and people.

Thursday, July 19, 2007

Stop. [ 11:00 pm ]

When will this end? How long will it be? Feels familiar … I walked this valley before. Everything looks familiar to me and I feel the same kind of fear that I had before. Experience tells me so much, but my heart tells me to delve deeper … but I don’t want to. I’m not ready to find what’s down there.

Time to stop wondering,
time to stop pondering,
time to stop worrying,
time to stop.

I feel lost and without direction at the moment. I’ve been through this before and I never thought I’d be like this again. I have too many things to do and my heart is messed up. I cannot concentrate and give my best, but yet I will still try. Even if the sky falls, I should always give my best.

Maybe working in 2 places is really not the best thing for me. The money is good, but my head is split, responsibilities are split. I know I am tough enough to handle these pressures, but sometimes I feel like breaking. I see my relationship with people grow further and further … without even knowing why. I ask, no one bothers to answer me. I observe, I see the norm … there’s more than meets the eye. Gut feeling has been telling me many things.

How should I feel God? You tell me.

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