about me A loner, although do enjoy the occasional companionship, if you can handle it. Enjoys long term friendships, sensitive, ponders a lot about life and people. Monday, July 09, 2007
Think no more.
[ 2:17 pm ] These few years after college, I’ve been letting my head do the thinking so much that I’ve nearly forgotten about the heart. Maybe because having my heart fail over and over again made me use my head more hahaha … maybe it’s just seasoned experience. I never knew how irritating it was until it was pointed to me. Yeah, now I find it irritating, but sometimes you just can’t help using your head. Over analysing, a lot of ‘if-then-else’ scenarios in my head. My goodness … I’m a living breathing computer program. These 2 days, I’ve been desperate enough to find out, what happened. I was not like how I am today when I was in school, college or even my early working life. So, what happened? So I read back some of my earlier blog entries … hmm … how come most of the entries are childish? What happened? Heck most entries even sounded chirpy. So … unlike me. There’s only one post in 2004, though I don’t remember much of what happened in my life that time …… wait, I knew what happened. No wonder. To think that it has profound effects. I wonder if this is better? Or ten years back? Maybe I really grew a lot. Maybe nothing died, just asleep in me. Maybe I shouldn’t be too critical of myself and just take things as it comes … and really forget about it? Wasn’t it that way? It gets really tiring remembering all your mistakes and regrets, it’s an emotional burden. I know I’m quite developed as an individual, I cannot deny that … and I cannot deny that it’s done and over, meaning there’s nothing for me to improve anymore … now, it’s to have a harmonious mix of head and heart. It has tip the scale for too long now, time to realign it. YOU CAN DO IT! Chewah … self-motivation. 0 comments Archives nothing |
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