I wonder.: Hmmm.

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A loner, although do enjoy the occasional companionship, if you can handle it. Enjoys long term friendships, sensitive, ponders a lot about life and people.

Hmmm. [ 5:19 pm ]

These few days have been quite frustrating to me. A lot of things have been happening, but thank God I’m not trap in the whirlpool. I know how wonderful it is to be cared for by someone, there’s a side of me that’s wanting been so much to give, to devout, to care, to … everything, hahaha … but I need to learn how to receive as well. This is getting to be a bit of a problem for me. I need to learn to receive and not keep on giving … where is the balance?

The days ahead of me will be filled with obstacles and narrow roads; I hope I have the strength to go on. How much patience does one need? I wonder. Wonder no more. I need to stop wondering … since I know the answers already. Enough patience to see a change … if not changes. That day will come, by His grace. Until then, I will keep on praying and hoping. I knew the road ahead was not an easy one, do I regret? No. Is it worth it? I saw a possible future, yeah it’s worth it. What’s it like to support and encourage? Does it have to be in words? At times I don’t think so … sometimes just showing that you feel the same is enough … but words articulate it lah. I wonder what happened to my articulacy. Can’t seem to speak my mind in proper sentences now.

God, why are there struggles? Adam sinned and now we know good and evil … I wish I never knew, so I could walk with You, unblemished and unashamed. By giving us choices, You allow us to choose, sometimes I made the wrong choices, yet You are so merciful. Please don’t let this be a mistake. I want to go through this.

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