about me A loner, although do enjoy the occasional companionship, if you can handle it. Enjoys long term friendships, sensitive, ponders a lot about life and people. Wednesday, May 03, 2006
Retreat.
[ 10:41 pm ] LIFE retreat was good … not “Rar Rar” good, but well, ok lah. Someone asked me if I benefited from the camp, I pondered for a while. I think I did. I knew a few more people a lot better, and of course and little more about myself. I really enjoyed Adeline Eng’s personality profiling session. I now realized why I get along well with some people … coz we’re the same hahahaha. We did the temperament tests … Sanguine, Phlegmatic, Choleric, Melancholic … yeah, that test. Didn’t surprise me that I’m Melancholic-Phlegmatic. I found a few people who were like me. I’m happy. No wonder I could talk with them hahaha. Jack led 2 worship sessions while I ‘backed’ him on another guitar. It felt really awkward, have not played in front of anyone for many many years … and what more, in front of GOD … I did what I could with my rusty skills, but I thank God for giving me a passion for music and hearing. Though both need real practice ... one day I’ll improve. If only I didn’t stop playing 7 years ago. I want to play like Evan and Bryan hahaha. I felt a little out of place in camp, don’t think I talked much except to a few people that I’m really comfortable with. I find it very difficult to mix around … so weird. Then again, I don’t see the need to, I don’t mind staring into space to clear my thoughts and having time with myself. Anti-social? Perhaps. But I appreciate those who made the effort to talk to me, sorry for not being engaging, maybe we don’t share the same wavelength. I kinda like my group, Hartz. We didn’t had to do much for the cheers or short sketch hahaha … kinda relaxing, not so ‘kan cheong’ or kiasu like the rest of the other groups :P I like our cheer … it’s dumb and lame … but that’s us. I think I’m dumb and lame sometimes. Ok … maybe most of the time. It’s amazing how some people are able to put up with me and how some just get turned off :O~ I think lameness is part of my family gene … I sort of got my voice back during camp, not entirely but it’s so much better now compared to a few days ago. I can’t hit the regular notes yet, maybe in a few more days I hope. I can’t sing yet … sigh. I wanted to sing and praise God, but some words wouldn’t come out right and went to silent … I did what I could lah. The last day of camp we had to do our own personal devotion, instead a few of us (like me) didn’t. So, what did I do? I basked under the morning sun (I love the morning sun), and was deep in thought over something. I should have spent that time talking to God because I felt I haven’t been talking to him much lately. God knows my thoughts … that scare me sometimes. We had the game sessions on the second day of camp. I wasn’t really interested with the games though … but well, do what you gotta do. I don’t like running around. I don’t mind sitting down and sharing about life to someone. Did I bless anyone while in camp? I wonder. I should make it a point to be a blessing to someone wherever I am. Was I blessed in the camp? Maybe, I just need to open up my eyes and my heart a little to understand. There were a lot of bugs at camp; it’s quite fascinating to see some react to those huge moths, rhino beetles, praying mantis, etc. It was quite normal for me though, having grown up in an estate for 17 plus years. Snakes, spiders, giant centipedes … you see them quite often. I think I have to be a little cautious nowadays with the things I share with some people. You can never be too careful. Are secrets really secrets? What a joke. It’s always wise to share different things with different people but not the same things and everything to one and only one confidante :) Even the things that I write about in this blog aren’t fully complete anyways. I thank God for giving me close friends that I can share my heart out with. I know there are many more out there, I will find you one day. 0 comments Archives nothing |
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