about me A loner, although do enjoy the occasional companionship, if you can handle it. Enjoys long term friendships, sensitive, ponders a lot about life and people. Friday, March 14, 2008
You want me to sing with you?
[ 5:20 pm ] Felt a little down today, maybe a little bit more confused than down. Hey, those 2 feelings don't mix very well. I think I need to re-evaluate a few things in my life. What's important now? My work? My so called career? My family? My friends? Church? The ever diplomatic one would say, there has to be a balance between all, while the Christian brother down the road says, God should be place above all. Hmmm ... human nature sets in ... somehow God is always at the back of our head. Knowing He's there but ... yet, He's at the back ... we're in front. How wrong is that? I had a pleasant dream last night :) It's one of those vivid dreams that remains with you throughout the day. I think this dream kinda showed me what an awfully aloof person I am and how one person was the opposite. So, here it goes. In that dream I think I was at a dinner function. It's one of those that I'll go ... "Crap, who am I sitting with, argh ... no one I know" So, I found my table, it was mostly occupied already with people that I don't know. I took my seat next to a ... umm, girl who's quite lively and ... chirpy. Friendly. She introduced herself, and I ... ignored her. WWHAT THE!! WHY WOULD I DO THAT?! Now, as far as I can recall, she's was quite cute (again, I wish this person was real and not in a dream) .... don't know why I ignored her. She was quite persistent, and talked and talked and talked ... but, it wasn't boring. She was ... interesting, the things she talked about (dunno what la). Hah ... and the funny thing is, she said she's from Kota Kinabalu and her name is *censored*. I rather keep the name private. Then she said she's gonna perform a song later on stage and asked if I would like to join her? Ahem, being myself, you could be Miss Universe or some princess from a distant country, that still won't get me go on stage. Not gonna happen. She said, she's gonna sing "More than Words", took my hands and .... next thing I knew, I was up on stage with her, but, I was feeling really comfortable and not awkward of the whole thing. Then the scene shifted to me flying to KK. Umm ... then she took me to a place that looked like a beach, 'coz there were coconut trees. We were in an old beat-up yellow car. It was kinda fun. I can't explain it very well in words. All I know was, this girl is everything that I'm not and wish to be. I think the whole dream paint a picture of the person I am ... and the person that I look for. Who knows? Maybe that's why I'm feeling a little down and confuse today. That person is not real. 0 comments Archives nothing |
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