about me A loner, although do enjoy the occasional companionship, if you can handle it. Enjoys long term friendships, sensitive, ponders a lot about life and people. Monday, March 10, 2008
Ignorance.
[ 11:45 am ] Haven't been writing for a while now, been kept busy lately at work. Something has been bugging me for a while now, and to put it simply it could be burdensome. I know I am very much different from everyone else. Don't expect me to follow the rules ... well, sometimes. I hate getting sucked into a whole system of things and feel restrained. As much as you want to think that we have the same thoughts, we don't. Sometimes people treat you like crap, and sometimes they treat you like you're one of the best-est friend in the whole wide world. Sorry, I'm not conned into that. I don't like chameleons, I like comedians :D Had to say that ... it kinda rhymed ... haha. Anyways, ACTIONS speak louder than words, how can you say something and do something else? For example, behind someone's back you say what a creep he is, a loser, a (insert other adjectives) and then the next thing you know, wow, you're like buddy buddy :) Just like some politicians. It never ceases to BAFFLE me. I don't understand, although I do try to understand. I guess there are some things that I just won't get it. I have to be careful, I could be like that too without knowing it. Who's gonna check me? Yesterday felt like a long ... long ... long day. Needed to get out of things and NOT WANTING TO FEEL THE RESPONSIBILITY of it. I hate feeling trapped in a circle of things. It never ends. When you're in a circle, you're just trapped in a routine. Same thing, over and over again. The more you go round and round, the more things stick to you (something like a cotton candy machine). I don't like things sticking on me. I wish I had more good friends, but no ... they HAD to be scattered around the globe. Sometimes, all that I'm left are people that think they know you because it's their responsibility to do so. I am difficult, aren't I? I don't feel so. You know, I've come to realise that when people are being 'difficult', they are just being petty. Am I petty? I could be. Who isn't? A person's life isn't like a vending machine. Perhaps, I am being very shallow and blinded to see things which are good. It's so easy to see and point to things which are bad. That's human nature (see, it's convenient to blame it all on human nature). I admire those that only see the good in others, I really do. Sometimes I do TRY to emulate that ... haha ... but fail lah. Face it, 'coz it's fun to criticise others. How does it feel when it's you that's on the other end of the knife? You reap what you've sown? Ouch. Hmmm ... this post does feel quite cryptic. Just throwing some thoughts out of my mind. Pastor has been saying that 2008 is a time for new beginnings. True enough, I've seen some new beginnings. Throw away with the old, the past, the hurts, etc and begin anew. How? Have been trying, and with each step that take, I get a lousy setback. And it gets harder and more personal. Susah. So, should that stop you? Sometimes I really wish I never knew the things I know, see the things I saw ... ignorance is a bliss. Let's be ignorant. Just for a while. Can I do that? 0 comments Archives nothing |
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