about me A loner, although do enjoy the occasional companionship, if you can handle it. Enjoys long term friendships, sensitive, ponders a lot about life and people. Thursday, September 18, 2008
Runaway!!
[ 2:46 pm ] I had a really bad dream last night ... In the dream, I bumped into someone, probably some aunty that I have not meant in a long while, so we caught up a little. She asked what I've been up to and if i'm already married. Then I said no ... still single. Immediately she said, why don't you marry my daughter? (WTF?) Before I knew it ... I was wearing a black suit with a red bow tie. I had no shoes to wear ... so I wore a pair of white sneakers instead. Classy. I think that looks so cool. Anyways, I remembered the feeling ... it wasn't pleasant at all. I didn't even know who the girl was, nor have I met her before ... all I remembered was ... it wasn't a nice feeling, I had a lot of doubts and uncertainties. She looked like someone that I WOULD NEVER EVER FALL FOR (sorry) .We didn't go to her home to pick her up, instead we were suppose to meet in church. Anyways, I remembered waiting somewhere high up, looking down at the church below ... observing the guests that were arriving. More and more people arrived ... and the more I felt uneasy, and thought this was a really bad choice to make. I felt I was marrying the wrong girl. The fear of being stuck with the wrong person for the rest of my life frightened me. I thought about running away ... not wanting to turn up for the wedding. I didn't know what to do. Then she arrived at the church. So where's the groom? Hah! I'm up here ... observing, no one could see me. I needed to run, this is a bad idea. I RAN AWAY! More like, I escaped, lol ... eh no laughing, this is serious matter. A lot of people were trying to contact me ... but I hid myself in a room somewhere. Crazy thoughts were filling my mind. What have I done? How did I get myself into this mess? What's gonna happen to the wedding? How much have I wasted on the wedding? Who's gonna pay for the wedding? Oh my god ... what a mess I've gotten myself into! It was evening already ... everyone was frantically searching for me. Then her parents found and cornered me. I didn't know how to explain myself? Then I finally said, "I can't do this, this is wrong ... I don't even like her". Then they disappeared and I found myself running again ... this time, I was stopped by David (my ex-college mate, lol). He gave me a tight slap!! And asked what I'm doing. Then I explained myself that I need to get out, and this wasn't the right decision, he smiled and helped me escape from all the people that were looking for me. I was at this new place ... away from everyone, and I sat down and thought about all the decisions I've made (wah ... in a dream, I can think!!). Then I made a phone call to this person ... that I knew didn't turn up for the wedding ... and asked why wasn't she there ... and I told her what transpired. I think I was comforted by what she said, though I couldn't remember what it was ... and assured me that, that was the right decision to make. Hahaha ... and I was still worried about who's gonna pay for the failed wedding. Then, the dream ended. What a nightmare. Who wanna interpret for me? :D Now, don't say I'm commitment phobic. I don't think I am, as a matter of fact, I think I'm quite loyal. I don't know what to make of this dream. How could I had made such a huge mistake? Running away from a wedding isn't a manly thing to do man, an act of a coward. But I know one thing for sure, I will not settle for someone who's not right for me ... never. Some people end up wondering if they made a mistake marrying their spouse. I know, maybe some point in their life, that could happen ... would it be naive for me to hope that it won't happen to me? But I don't want to come to that. Good thing that I'm still single and don't have to think about this now. Lol ... I remembered how the bride looked like ... there was ZERO attraction. ZERO. NEVERRRRRRRRRRR!!! Don't let this happen!!!! Stupid dream. Oh yeah, I met up with Joel last Monday. It had been a while since I last saw him. We caught up a little and he seems to be doing rather ... excellent. He wanted me to build a website for his dance studio ... since I designed one for him before ... but this time round, it's gonna be a lot of corporate identity stuff ;) Sounds rather fun. So ... I said yes, haven't figured how much to quote him yet. This morning I drove all the way to Menara Sunway to meet up with someone, they needed a freelancer for a video presentation ... too bad I accepted Joel's project already, and I don't think I can handle 2 projects at once ... better not to bite more than you chew! So I gave Chern Liang's contact instead. Sigh ... but I wanna do that video presentation, coz that looks like fun too! Anyhooooo ... I'm hoping to earn enough money to maybe, visit someone in London sometime next year ;) I'll be spending some of my free time now to play ... Warhammer Online! Hah ... another online game to suck my life away. So far, I've gotten a few people to join me :P Jia Wern being one of them. I'll be getting the game later today ... so ... farewell world, you shall not hear from me much now! BUT, I welcome invitations from thee! Balance ... balance ... cannot be too sucked into the game ... I remembered what FFXI did to me ... oh well, yay. How's work btw? It's good. Exciting times indeed. We'll be holding a competition soon with a few colleges sometime end of the year ... I'm excited about it! Why won't I? I've seeing exponential growth in the company and I'm really proud to be in this start up! It feels good to have contributed something to it :) You know, I was wondering the other day, where will I be in a couple of years time? Will I still be in this company? Or would I had moved on to another? I really dunno. At this point in time, I really have no clear directions to go, all I'm focused about now is to make this current start up work ... with what abilities that I have :) Thanks for reading :) 0 comments Archives nothing |
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